Nov 14, 2011
I relapsed. Im so mad at myself. I took tramadol once because i had a very weak moment and then i used vicodin this weekend. Im very uphappy with myself and barely slept last night. I feel like throwing myself on the floor and sobbing because i have failed myself and so many others. I would have been over 35 days clean now. instead im starting over from day one and i feel like garbage. I was given a free ticket from withdrawal last time and i doubt i'll be so lucky again. I am so down and low right now that my heart hurts. I wish i had made the other decision and flushed them. Im so sorry to everyone and to myself. I'll pick myself up and try again.