Nov 14, 2011
my addiction to DXM started in October of 2008. like many here, I went on binges. I would do 4 boxes of Coricidin in the course of a night. I'm pretty sure I reached plateaus that were never experienced consciously.
I spent a weekend at a friend's house this past February and my 'rent' was to constantly be ****** up. I had to have a beer in hand at all times and they went and bought me DXM and scheduled out when I should take how many...that was probably the worst experience I ever had. I ended up humiliating myself and betraying a friend and losing someone else's trust I was trying to build back up. I was even told I did things I didn't do because they just wanted me to be upset and feel like **** and think I was retarded. most of the time I tripped, I was happy and outgoing, and energetic, for sure. DXM is apparently a milder form of PCP, and I'd end up breaking things or hurting someone with what I thought was a gentle punch.
I've done too much on this drug than I care to remember, but now that the side effects are catching up to me and I'm reflecting on the ones I've hurt and those I've lost...it's kind of just all coming to the surface.
the last time I used was this past October, and I barely remember taking them. I don't even know if it was only one box or not. I had already been on my Ambien, which I'm also developing an addiction to...and I stole a box [or two] of DXM from the store. I remember taking them out of the package in the bathroom, and then being at home. I've been having urges to take them lately, but it's just not as strong as it used to be.
in the past few months, I've slowly been becoming detached from my physical state and having horrible memory lapses and fuzzy thoughts. my muscles feel horrible and my vision is acting up really badly. I'm one of those new agey people, and thought for a while that I was adjusting to the potential Photon Belt and all of the solar flares and activity going on in space and such...but, I think I'll be seeing a doctor soon...just to be safe.
I strongly advise against DXM. it can ruin your life and your body. it's only "fun" for so long, until one day, you realize none of those days were ever really fun. if I could choose any point in time to go back to, it would be when I was first offered DXM. I would say no and stay away. it changed my life. mostly, for the worst, but I do know that I've learned a lot from it. I still have a long way to go to reconcile with myself, but it's needed.
I'm not sure what else to say...take care all.