Nov 28, 2011
Part of me has been wondering lately if i will just be FOREVER trying to be clean and never getting there. This time of year used to be my favorite and now nothing matters to me besides my addiction. I cant get happy about a tree or feel cozy at home because im so caught up in the whole thing. Im caught up in the feelings, the lifestyle and i Dont want it anymore. I havnt slept through the night in over 4 days and I am constantly exhausted and broken. I want. my. life. back. This *****.