Dec 06, 2011
i kind of wanted to smoke today but i didnt and i wanted to, just to kind of feel like I belong...and I feel bad about Ben... I think I might just leave him alone for a while. even though it'll be hard, i have to stop myself. and I need to stop klying and exaggurating. it's bad for me. it just makes me feel worse about myself because i know its not actually true.