slysue

today i feel very stupid.  But I must say the pain is not as bad. I don't know why i call myself  sly  beaause  that's not me...  . I worked in a  hospital  and  I  helped run a surgical, unit,but put a computer in my hands + I'm humiliated. Ok enough of that.  Yesterday was so hard for me, I went to the Dr + he told me I have Lupus. He said for me it took awhile (3-4) years because of all my surgury's. I've had a fever @ least every other day. Ineed to get this because I can't do this alone. All the pain most of the time.my sed rate  thats always .out of control,geting very sick yearly trips to the hospital because things juzt shut dow.Last year I lost 100 lbs. + gained 60 back this year/ I feel alone but i'm tring.......more tomarrow.I hope..JUST SUE.