Addiction

Addiction is a brigde I crossed 15 years ago when I smoked my first cigarette, progressing to injectible opiods. Now facing those consequences is a never ending battlefield I must crawl accross every day.  Some days are execptionally disheartening & difficult.  Some are a  filled with confidence &  the empowerment of six years of mostly sobriety; with the help of methadone. Some days I fel it saved my life, other days I wish I had never even heard of the ****.  It is difficult dealing with all the stigma and criticism surrounding methadone. It does have two sides- in some ways it is very benificial, in others it only prolongs a life of addiction.  If I wasen't able to go to a clinic & get my methadone everyday would I be out in the street looking for dope? Yes I most likely would.Still I am an abusing addict- I just get my drugs legally & don't do illegal activities to get the drugs my body craves daily.  Damned either way; damned fr5om the first puff.