Update... kinda

First of all I would like to thank all the wonderful ladies who have left me messages in the last little while.  I have been offline for a bit just trying to get things done around home, working a bit extra, and resting when I can.  

I don't really have much to update on.  I still don't have a date for my lap.  I am hoping now it isn't before Christmas as the next 2 months are the busiest for me at work.  January is when I need the time off.  

I am managing the pain.  It doesn't go away at all any more.  It is either better or worse but never gone.  I refuse to take any pain meds.  Nothing seems to agree with me.  I am thinking after an official dx I want to start acupuncture.  I have a client who had fibroids and the acupuncture really helped with the pain as well as helping her through menopause.  I have never been a very holistic person and have always taken "something" for pain but I am thinking this may be a good way to approach things.  

I'm staying positive.  I have lived depressed before... it affects everyone and I am NOT going to go there.  Ted and my children don't need to see me like that.  It's bad enough they catch a wince or a moan when it feels like something is tearing my insides apart with every breath.  

The things that do sadden me....
I bought some real sexy jeans a little while back and I still can't wear them.  I think it will be a while.
I still feel extreme fatigue and have yet to find my "spunk" but I know it is there somewhere.
I can't enjoy a good meal... feeling full so quickly and not a good full either


Things are a bit better with Ted and I.  I am feeling the need to be more intimate.  It is amazing the things you can do without having actual intercourse.  I have been a "romance specialist" with a certain company for a year now, it was about time I started taking some of my own advice.  And it is good.


Hopefully we will get some answers soon.... and then we can fix whatever is wrong.