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Where did the cravings go???

Oct 13, 2008 08:49AM - 6 comments

I think it's been almost a month since ive had a craving, wtf. After battling so long, I feel like i have beaten this. I know we can't let our guard down now and i'll always be an addict, but the strength from my daughter is something so strong i can say with all the confidence in the world i will not use again. Cravings were always scary for me even when i knew how to fight them, but they have disappeared completely this past month and im so grateful. If it hadn't been for my relapse, I would have a year clean coming up in november. What a process getting clean is, a journey and i discovered so much about myself and how to cope sober.  What i have noticed lately the most is when something a bit stressful happens, using dosen't even cross my mind, i deal with it, i cope instead of getting all ****** up.  I feel very lucky lately.  Although at first it's so difficult staying clean, time heals all and every day that passes is another day we can say we are winning this battle. Keep fighting everyone, i promise it's worth it.

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by laurel453, Oct 13, 2008 09:06AM
they came to me , think so ,.... : )))

but i'll keep fighting them, eh.


congrats for your time, it's encouraging reading you, btw.

by kris123, Oct 13, 2008 09:28AM
Yep, they go away, but there will be those times you "think" about it, not in a way you want to do it, but you think about how it made you feel, or i do at times, but for the most part - not even a thought about it comes to my mind.  You got your daughter in your life and that will keep you strong - she is apart of you and that is your blood, a great gift :)  hope you guys had fun this weekend

by toxictome, Oct 13, 2008 09:42AM
Here's a couple quotes for you, giz.

"WISDOM is knowing the right path to take.....INTEGRITY is taking it".

LIVE WITH PASSION.......The wave of passion can become an unstoppable force.

Life is good clean and sober!!

by jimi1822, Oct 14, 2008 10:41PM
Brother Giz,

             You are an inspiration to us all :o) you have so much GOD given strength, courage, wisdom, and
              true compassion. Go on with a Spirit that fears nothing!!!

                                                                         your true friend and brother in GOD and the Christ

                                                                                                                        jimi      

by Mandapanda17, Oct 16, 2008 07:38PM
I am so happy for you!! I hope my cravings and my pain stop soon. At least I'm going to get to see a neurologist for the pinched nerve soon, no narcotic meds for me~hopefully they can still help me!! again, so proud of you! Makes me want to fight even harder :) Stay strong, and I will do my best right along with you!!

by troubleinohio, Nov 15, 2008 02:25PM
i noticed this in your profile- one of your last journal enteries right before you relapsed. I just wanted to say I think you DID let your guard down- You felt like you had beaten the addiction and didnt need to fight anymore and thats when you slipped up. Just a reminder to you that can never let your guard down, hon. For all of us addicts, a constant life long battle and thats just the way it is.
xo xo xo xo

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