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BFP or FLUKE????

Jan 05, 2012 - 31 comments




OK, THIS IS BEEN DARKENED AND CONTRASTED TO ENHANCE WHAT WAS THERE ALREADY. Hence the filthy looking window seal that I didn't realize was so dirty!!!

I will upload the untouched photo too. The problem i see is the line looks too close to the test line... add that to the fact I'm only 8dpo and I think it's probably a fluke.

Kinda fun to hope though ;0)

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by angelbabies, Jan 05, 2012
i see the 2nd line!!! keep testing and see if it keeps coming back!! i really really hope this is ur bfp :) xx

by Moma_Cher, Jan 05, 2012
Thanks ;0) I kinda doubt it but love to hope!!!

by MeYeah, Jan 05, 2012
I see it too. I think my first second line was lighter than yours... Ahhhhhh please be real! I want you to get your BFP!

thats what my first slight line looked like.

by Moma_Cher, Jan 05, 2012
Ash, yours was darker (mine is enhanced) AND the lines WERE farther apart! *sigh* time will tell.

by Carly1306, Jan 05, 2012
I seen this in the side bar and had to comment. I think that looks like a BFP to me. Yeah it's pretty light, but it looks like it's pinky which is a good sign plus you're only 8dpo so it's still pretty early for it to be any darker. Looks good to me though!

by TAGLAS, Jan 05, 2012
I clearly see a second line there!!! Praying this is it :)

by Moma_Cher, Jan 05, 2012
Thanks Taglas!! It would be so nice to fall pg on a natural cycle after a year of brutal treatments!

by Sherri90049, Jan 05, 2012
I wouldn't worry about the distance between the lines. The test is definitely positive. The (faint) 2nd line means it's detecting a low level of HCG hormone. At 8dpo, normally it would be pretty faint. You could be just implanting in the last 24 hours or so! Hopefully if you test again in a couple of days, it will be a little darker. I will keep my fingers crossed, sweetie! Seeing a second line is alot better than not seeing a second line! (obviously! lol!) It would be so great if you could join the big group of BFP's we have on this site!!! Hugs!!!!

by hopeitworks, Jan 05, 2012
I can see a second line!! All crossables crossed!!!

by JoJo629, Jan 05, 2012
i SEE IT!!!  I dont think it's too close to the test line, i think thats the right spot (i used the same tests)

by angelbabies, Jan 05, 2012
i does look like a bfp, i just thought i would add i didnt get mine until 11-13 dpo so thats g8 for 8 days!! im keeping everything crossed for you!!!!!!!!!!!!! x

by hansen20, Jan 05, 2012
i see a second line! i think your pregnant=).

by leanne95, Jan 05, 2012
me to, i see it, i think its in the correct place too (the right distance from the test line)
and it has color to it (not gray) and the right thickness!!! (not the thin skinny lines that can sometimes happen)
i think its looking good, fingers crossed..... but i think its a +   :o)

by Moma_Cher, Jan 05, 2012
Thanks ladies!! I gotta keep my emotions in check.... Don't wanna get too excited because the let downs are brutal!, But I so appreciate your encouragement and input :))

by shea2010, Jan 05, 2012
i see the two lines i think it is a bfp. you should get a clearblue test they are very good and they tell you how far on you are... good luck xxxx

by Des_a_rae, Jan 05, 2012
Oh My Gosh!!!  That's okay, you be all calm, collect and we'll be EXCITED!!!  Looks like a BFP to me too!!  Woot WOOT!!  Sending loads and loads of SSBD!!  Can't wait to see the next test! :D

by rmmoye, Jan 05, 2012
I see a second line. did u do a trigger shot? if not then u got a true bfp.

by Moma_Cher, Jan 05, 2012
No trigger shot... All natural this cycle! It was my "ttc break" cycle before I move on to donor eggs :0)

by tones99, Jan 05, 2012
Ok. Couldnt see the pic on my phone so had to jump on the full site and boy was I glad I did. 8dpo is so early to be seeing that line and that def is a positive!!! I think the lines are the right spacing too. Oh please let it just get stronger and stronger now!!!  Congrats my friend x

by juana105, Jan 05, 2012
I can see it very clearly!!! I think that this is IT!!!!!!!
Congratulations, girl:-)))

by retta483, Jan 05, 2012
haha I think It's a BFP  :D  yay I really pray it is hun xx

by leillani, Jan 05, 2012
I hope it is a BFP. Fingers crossed for your little miracle, Cheri! :o)

by Moma_Cher, Jan 05, 2012
Well ladies, thanks for your kind words but I tested again and it was a BIG FAT STARK WHITE NEGATIVE. I had the feeling that line was in the wrong spot.... Like seeing a picture on the wall that's slightly off. Lucky me, I got a defective test. I knew the odds were against me but it still hurts.

I am just so exhausted with the letdowns so I'm ready to get the ball rolling with DE. Just coping with grieving the loss of not using my own eggs... It's definitely a process. I thought I was ready, and then this false positive through me for a loop. I really really wish it were true positive but it's not. As much as I wish I could use my own eggs I need to realize that I want a BABY now. I can't keep trying for something that's unlikely to happen and I'm getting older and older! I will be turning 42 in April, and I never saw myself continuing ttc past 2011, much less into my next birthday.

Thank you all for your love and support!! I'm gonna need it even more in the coming weeks and months!



by adgal, Jan 05, 2012
I'm sorry it was a false one.  Those are so heartbreaking I know.

I completely understand your desire to take the next step.  Personally, I think the grieving process is normal, but once we move past what isn't, it's so much easier to get excited about what is to come (if that made sense).  In my opinion, making the decision is the stressful part, but once it's been made and the ball gets rolling....I bet you never shed another tear.  2012 can be your year too honey.  You just hang in there and keep believing!! xoxo

by tones99, Jan 05, 2012
but did you test again later in the day?  don't count yourself out yet if you did .. when I have a faint positive, it only ever shows up with fmu .. but I do understand wanting to stop the exhaustion of the is it/isn't it game .. it is soul destroying.

I am just glad that you've decided to go the donor route, so if this does turn out to be a false positive, you have something great to focus your energy on.  But I am still holding out hope for this one hon .. don't give up just yet!

by Super_sally888, Jan 05, 2012

Don't get down yet!  Really you have tested way too early at 8 and 9 DPO.  It is way too early to jump to any conclusions!  

That is why they don't recommend testing so early - you will drive yourself crazy wondering and hoping and having your heart breaking.

Take a deep breath (don't hold it though) and wait.  Will be watching to see if this turns out ok for you in a few days.

Hang in there....

by Sherri90049, Jan 05, 2012
Ditto what Toni and Sally said. It's too early to know one way or the other! Test again in a couple of days! Implantation is said to occur at 6-12dpo, so even if you are pregnant (or going to be), it would be unlikely you could get a + at 8dpo.

DE is a great backup plan! We are going to TTC with my eggs for 6 more months or so, but start saving money in case it doesn't work, then we'll do DE's. As long as the baby is my DH's, I will be fine! I will definitely be sad if I can't use my own eggs, but I'm like you. I just want a BABY now! Hang in there, sweetie!

by zara2011, Jan 06, 2012
I couldnt wait to get into work this morning to look at this lol - my mobile wouldnt bring it up last night.
I think too it looks like a BFP even from a distance. I got my faint first BFP at 10 dpo with evening urine at 7.30pm so dont think your out yet. But like you say its very hard not to get excited when even the word BFP is mentioned. Try your best to stay calm and test again in a few days time... xxx SSBD hun xxx

by jade1711, Jan 06, 2012
I see a line too fingers crossed for you hun xx

by xXxshoshxXx, Jan 06, 2012
could even be twins..
a line already ? double the hormone hunny ;) xx good luck xx

by beddajess, Jan 08, 2012
I see the line too!!

I am praying for you n I hope this is your BFP!!!


Keep us all updated on here!!

SSBD my dear MH friend xoxo

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