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THIS BATTLE IS NO LONGER MINE!!

Jan 09, 2012 - 53 comments

Woke up this morning @ approximately 4:30 am to moderate abdominal pain. When I went to the bathroom I noted BRIGHT RED DC W/O CLOTS in the commode.  I wouldn’t say that it was a gush but definitely a significant amount. I just went into tears and said oh no it’s over!!!  I immediately grabbed my bible crawled back in bed and began to pray.  I reported to my Dr. @ 9:00 am as scheduled for my 4th BETA.  I explained to my PMD that things were not looking good because I now had bright red spotting accompanied by mild to moderate abdominal pain.   So off I went to the hospital for a STAT beta!!

My PMD called around 1200 noon and stated…. I don’t know what’s going on but your BETA is now 5751 and that my lining is 9mm!!  DH AND I WERE NOT EXPECTING TO HEAR THAT NUMBER! According to the reference range on the lab report, 500-10,000 is consistent w/ 3-4 weeks gestational age.  Also, the U/S report stated “NO PREGNANCY IS SEEN, NORMAL UTERUS AND ADNEXA- CANNOT EXCLUDE VERY VERY EARLY VIABLE IUP (intrauterine pregnancy)”.  At this point, my DOC and I have decided NO MORE BETAS!!  This is an unexplained phenomenon as far as I am concerned LOL!!  Obviously this bleeding is coming from somewhere but no one has the answer. The ER, the RADIOLOGIST, my PMD, RE, NO ONE!!!  

Anyhow, I am now on bed rest! I was actually looking forward to returning to work in a few weeks!  I won’t return until this bleeding has resolved.  I am officially turning this matter over to GOD!  VIABILITY U/S 1/17/2012 W/ RE.



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by Hopefulcb, Jan 09, 2012
oh, you poor thing - it must be so hard to wait and not know what is going on. It sounds positive though that an intrauterine pregnancy cannot be ruled out! It probably is too early for anyone to see anything much at this point, so hang in there. So many people have bleeding and spotting and go on to have a normal pregnancy. I hope this is the case for you! You are in my thoughts! Hugs!!

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by SeptemberBound, Jan 09, 2012
You are doing the right thing, resting and trusting in God!  He word says "no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly before him."  We are all praying for you!

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by TAGLAS, Jan 09, 2012
Thanks ladies :) I can no longer drive my self up the wall!! This is really of my hands. I feel comfort in knowing that I sought treatment and looked for answers.

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by kris71, Jan 09, 2012
I'm so sorry you're going through this! I'm praying for you and your little bean.

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by plumber43, Jan 09, 2012
Tag, I'm praying for you honey!
Hugs,
Melanie

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by stargazy, Jan 09, 2012
Will keep you in my prayers! Big hugs for you!

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by sisi2399, Jan 09, 2012
I have you, your DH and baby/ies in my prayers!  I keep saying that beta is telling u something.  Believe!!!!

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by tones99, Jan 09, 2012
oh honey .. I wish this was easier .. but like you said .. it's out of your hands .. you have done everything right and there is absolutely nothing more you can do.

I wish you had another u/s sooner than the 17th though ... but hopefully by then, your uterine pregnancy will be really clear .. your betas are doing exactly what they should at this time so really hoping that is a good sign!  thinking of you love

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by yoha919, Jan 09, 2012
hey love so sorry this is happening to you but to make you feel better a lot of women have bleeding in early pregnancy and have healthy babies sometimes the bleeding is all through the pregnancy as long as there are no clots hun take it easy follow the bed rest and keep praying! im praying for you and your little bean 3-4 weeks on a ultra sound cant really tell anything its too early but your numbers are freaking great!!!!! wow :)

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by butterflybabies, Jan 09, 2012
So sorry you have to go thru all this. I will keep you in my prayers.. Sending you big hugs!

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by melimeli, Jan 09, 2012
prayers are with you... god is really the only one who is in control anyhow...

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by ldybug71, Jan 09, 2012
So sorry to hear what you are going through.  Have trust and faith in the LORD, it is in his hands now.  Follow your bed rest and no matter what, you pray!!!!

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by adgal, Jan 09, 2012
In my thoughts and prayers.  I so wish you didn't have to go through all of this, and I'm still hoping for a good outcome.  Know your not alone...we are all there with you even if you can't actually see us.  xoxo

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by baby2929, Jan 09, 2012
Im sorry to read your going through this, I sure hope this is a sticky wee bean or 2 and on 17th you get that al important scan which proves you have a viable pregnancy. Please know that I am praying for you and if you need anything at all I am here for you. Just drop me a line.
I had read someone else on here had bleeding and clots thrughout there pregnancy until 20 something weeks then it finally subsided. There about due now Im sure. Only downside for them was the constant bed rest for the 20 something weeks. Never give up hope, its not over til its over. Good luck and keep us updated. Were always here to support you. xx

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by AnnieBrooke, Jan 10, 2012
When I had two embryos transferred, I began bleeding in my 6th week, and although both embryos were seen with beating hearts in my 7th week, one faded at 8 weeks.  The bleeding was pretty heavy associated with that, but the other baby stuck through thick and thin.  If you had three embryos transferred, this might be the same kind of thing happening.  Try not to worry, if your betas are going up, one or more are doubtless still going forward.

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by loved29, Jan 10, 2012
god is in control

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by TAGLAS, Jan 10, 2012
I can't thank you ladies enough!!  One more week until the U/S :)

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by angelbabies, Jan 10, 2012
i bleed very heavy during this pregnancy, bright red blood for weeks on end, i had whats called a sub-chronic hematoma, iv herd its very commen to have this also if u have had ivf! dont give up hun, ill keep u in my prayers x

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by journey2motherhood, Jan 10, 2012
I'm praying for you Tag - try to hang in there!  God is watching over you and your little bean!

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by heather727, Jan 10, 2012
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your baby(ies).  I hope all is well next week at the ultrasound.

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by rbohl01, Jan 10, 2012
Praying for you and a perfect little bean =) Can't wait to hear how the ultrasound goes

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by Shannon79, Jan 10, 2012
I don't know what to say that hasn't already been said here.

So I will just offer you my prayers, and hope that you have a sticky bean!

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by amy8702, Jan 10, 2012
I too had very heavy bleeding and passed a very large clot. It was a subchronic hemorrhage (hematoma) which is apparently pretty common. I am now almost 10 weeks and everything seems to be going well!! Lots of prayers going your way!

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by adgal, Jan 10, 2012
I just wanted to remind you I had the same thing as Amy.  I thought for sure it was a miscarriage, but it was fine.  Scary to see, but fine.  I can't help but think that if you are bleeding like that, if it was due to miscarriage, your levels should not be increasing.  Typically, levels can increase until the loss begins, but once the bleeding comes, they start to drop.  So not sure exactly what is going on, but I just don't feel like this is due to losing the baby.  I know I'm not a Dr., but it just doesn't sound right.  I bet you wind up having had something like Amy and I did.

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by TAGLAS, Jan 10, 2012
UPDATE:

Hi Ladies, the flow seems even heavier today! Not quite like a period YET but seems to be getting there!   My PMD suggested that I inform the RE. RE said exactly what I thought he would " there is nothing we can do" let’s just wait for the US next week. They didn't even offer to check the BETA!! I am at peace and will let nature take its course. What's meant to be will be!  It feels good knowing I have so much support from all of you!! Thank you soooooo much for being here!


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by mhv, Jan 10, 2012
You are not alone! tons of prayers from a lot of women are being heard.   I am so glad you  are at  peace.  It is so out of our hands what happens.  I am sorry you have to wait for another week, and hopefully you PMD will order another beta.  Hugs!!!!!

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by Alexis2358, Jan 10, 2012
hang in there sweetie....only 1 thing can cause a beta to double....many many many things can cause bleeding, some of which will have NO impact on a pregnancy.    I know its scary, but remember the beta keeps doubling and rising and that is ALL that is important right now.

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by Sherri90049, Jan 10, 2012
I had a friend who says she had THREE months of AF's while she was pregnant with her first son. He was born perfectly healthy and is now 20. Now I don't know if they were actual AF's or just bleeding that seemed to coincide with the dates that her AF would have normally shown up, but stories like that tell me that bleeding (from spotting up to even a heavy flow) does not necessarily mean anything is wrong.

Your betas are still PERFECT so clearly you are in the same boat as my friend. I am sure that bleeding while pregnant is very scary, but all signs point to everything being fine with your baby! We are all keeping you in our thoughts and prayers, sweetie!

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by leillani, Jan 10, 2012
Just dropped by to say hello. I keep you and your little one(s) in my thoughts like all the ladies here. Hang in there. We are all here for you.

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by ConnieG, Jan 10, 2012
Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you! I am glad you are on bed rest from what I read! Hopefully it will all turn out perfectly!

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by TAGLAS, Jan 10, 2012
Thanks ladies!!! You ladies give me great confidence. I really appreciate each and everyone of you. As of today, the spotting/bleeding has been present for 10 days. I am planning to do another BETA friday. I'm praying that the BETA will be at least  15,000-20,000.

SENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND BABY DUST TO ALL!!! :)

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by baby2929, Jan 11, 2012
Im feeling pretty confident that your BETA will be up, have a good feeling for you. Now Friday seems so far away to wait for your results, lol. Good luck and stick wee bean, stick :)

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by amy8702, Jan 11, 2012
Try not to count the days of bleeding as a horrible thing. Currently I've been bleeding for about 2 weeks. But apparently, still all is good. Keep you in my prayers and I hope you get the happy outcome I have.

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by TAGLAS, Jan 11, 2012
AMY- Thank you for the encouraging words :) It brings me great joy knowing others have experienced the same symptoms and still had a successful out come

BABY2929-THANKS FOR THE WELL WISHES HUN!! Glad you were able to log on again :)

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by jessy_fernan, Jan 11, 2012
HI my dear friend!!
I read your journal and it just sounds just what happend to me back on 12/7...3 days after i knew i was pregnant w beta confirmed i bleed for almost 2-3 weeks but was lot of blood w huge clots and strong cramping...but thanks God and all the prayers i have my lil baby growing inside very healthy and strong...just relax bcuz it has been our time and God is with us taking care of our babies to grow healthy...I was thought when i first started to bleed that God has put me in a big test to see if i trully have faith and believe on him..i never stop my prayers or faith to God and now im having a lil baby thats keep growing healthy and strong!!

Dont give up cuz God has good plans for u and your family!!
Love Jessy

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by tones99, Jan 11, 2012
it sounds like many women have gone through this same thing with positive outcomes .. I am so glad that everyone is telling their story to reassure you ... still stressful for you to have to go through, but with that perfectly rising beta, there is every chance that your bub is growing strongly in there .. I can't wait for your u/s next week!

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by marsi2, Jan 11, 2012
It's wonderful to see so many other women that have gone through similar and are doing just fine with their babies! I just know this will be the case with you!

Praying daily for us all to have our prayers answered....

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by adgal, Jan 11, 2012
Just checking in on you and continuing to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  I'm so glad to see how much support your getting...this site is such a wonderful place!  

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by TAGLAS, Jan 11, 2012
UPDATE:

First off, I really thank you ladies for checking in on me!!! It seems like so many women have experienced the same symptoms. This is a trying situation but also a hopeful one. I am so happy to have you ladies to carry me through!!

Spoke w/ my PMD ealier today and she's concerned about my Hemoglobin. We're going to check my Electrolytes, RBC, WBC, BETA and Progesterone on Friday. So... THESE TEST ALL PAN OUT TO A CHEM 7(ELECTROLYTES) CBC (RBC, HEMOGLOBIN), WBC=WHITE BLOOD CELLS (TO CHECK FOR INFECTION).

My PMD wants to do another U/S as well. I'm kind of pessimistic about the U/S and will probably wait to let the RE do the scan on Tuesday. After all, the Fertility clinic has state of the art equipment. I will give them credit for that. Just don't want to be disappointed if the Hospital tech can't see my baby(S).

I will keep everyone posted :)

Sending lots of love and baby dust to ALL!!!
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by kookyCaroline, Jan 12, 2012
I am praying that all is well for you and your little one.  Hugs, Caroline

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by mhv, Jan 12, 2012
I am so glad there are wonderful stories out there!  (my story included)   I have faith in God, and in your baby (ies).  You are going to get fantastic news!  And then, when someone is dealing with this, you will be able to share your journey, and how you had fantastic news waiting at the end. :). BELIEVE!!!!

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by TAGLAS, Jan 12, 2012
That is so true Melissa!! I know in my heart this will have a positive outcome. Just want to get the numbers and scan in lol!! Thank you hun :)

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by globetrot, Jan 12, 2012
Hugs to you- we are praying for you.  I had bleeding at 5 weeks and it went away.  Hang in there.

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by mjmom69, Jan 12, 2012
You're still in my prayers. I'm thinking of you ever day!

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by melimeli, Jan 12, 2012
praying every night for you and your babes

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by butterflybabies, Jan 12, 2012
Thinking of you and praying you finally get food news tomorrow so you can relax and enjoy..big hugs to you!

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by butterflybabies, Jan 12, 2012
Good* news not food lol

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by amy8702, Jan 12, 2012
I want food :) lol just teasing. Like you said, keep your Faith

Faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what do you not see. Hebrews 11:1

Best quote I've heatd in a long time and I live by it

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by TAGLAS, Jan 12, 2012
Thank you ladies for your continued support and prayers!! Tomorrow can't come fast enough!! :)

I will keep you posted!!


XOXOX

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by SeptemberBound, Jan 12, 2012
Amy8702 that is my favorite scripture also, a good one to hold onto!

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by butterflybabies, Jan 12, 2012
I was eating when I wrote food lol. Glad I made you laugh though. I will be stalking your page tomorrow looking for news! Fingers crossed xoxoxo

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by Moma_Cher, Jan 13, 2012
Hoping for best possible news today!!

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by plumber43, Jan 13, 2012
I see  your beta's what did the doctor say? Did they mention a lost a twin? I'm Praying for you Honey!
Hugs,
Melanie

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