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Hopefully it's not to late (Depression..?)

Jan 19, 2012 - 0 comments
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hurts

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school

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Depression

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teen depression

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help

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vunerable

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dilemna

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confused



Is it bad when you come to the
point of not caring about the things that
used to be so important to you like your
dreams future and wishes, not caring
whether or not it
happens.
I think I need help I realize this when it
started to effect me in school I have such
poor attendance that it's effected my high
g.p.a to the point of no return. Education
was one of my top priorities I thrived and
worked hard now Im too tired physically
from an emotional drain that confuses me
O.o It hurts to watch me fall so far down to
the point of almost not being able to
graduate it hurts even more to not do
anything about it.
I someone just lay in bed if they let me I
would be there for ours not having the
strength to get up.
My weight goes up and down I'm more
sleepy. I'd have random moments when I
feel sad or sorry for myself or just plain
depressed.
I can't go to my mom cause she won't
understand believe me when I say this
she'll think I'm crazy or something or that
I'm just trying to get attention etc. I'm
losing my friends people around
sometimes notice my distancing from them.
(not purposely)
What do I do? This us the first time I'm
realizing and anything my ..depression?
I seriously need help with school now
cause I'm on thin ice and is about to fall
into icy cold water any second and I'm not
ready to go public with this and explain my
"depression" to any of the APs
(administrators) or my counselor but my
absences are starting to raise some
eyebrows please anyone help!!!
Email me at:dbissanthe@gmail with any
solutions/advice (no therapy please I'm
not crazy) p.s no drugs either that's the worse solution I can think of

And in case this help I sometimes have suicidal thoughts (not to put into action just curious of the outcome/consequences)

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