Worried :(

Aweee girl men dont understand about pregnancy or just exactly how we feel my man is the same way. . .
Now do they think you have preeclampsia maybe?? It sounds like it with shoulder pain headaches and protein in urine. Hopefully it clears up soon. . . Not fun feeling like that at all. Can be serious. . Maybe dh doesnt understand, i've had to explain mine in detail before he understood and now he is more better with it. But his futbol always is there. . .  

I am soooooooooooooooo fed up of him, I could walk out RIGHT NOW!  
In fact, it's 10.45pm here, he's just gone to bed.  Think I'll wait till he's gone to sleep, get some stuff together and get outta here!  That'll give him a shock when he wakes up in the morning, bloody idiot!

It started again earlier when I mentioned I may go to hospital tomo cos of pain I'm in, and he said, "Oh, I suppose I'll have to cancel playing golf then" !!!!!!!

I don't need bloody antidepressants, I need a little moral support, something he seems incapable of, and I figure I'll be a whole lot better off on my own than with someone who treats me like this!
There's been a pattern to my low moods, and looking back at it all, the pattern is - He's a pr*ck, I get low mood.  I don't need pills for that, I need to get OUT!!!

I really thought he'd be so lovely when I got pregnant, cos it's what he's always wanted, but he's been a total, selfish, PIG, and I've finally had enough of him!

Don't think it's pre-eclampsia as pain is in both shoulders, but at least they're keeping an eye on me.  I have to get something done about the pain tho, as I'm now having trouble driving, and the last thing I need is to be isolated here at his bloody beck and call, grrrrrr, lol!

Bloody men, I really want this baby, but it ties me to him forever, and right now, I think that's the last thing I need!

Sorry for the rant, I'm letting off steam before I go in to stealth mode, trying to pack some stuff without waking him up!!

Hope you're ok, and you're getting more support from your man!

Nat xxx

Oooooh Nat, that's poo! Men can be real arseholes. If he is being such a t**t then just have a break for a while to get your mind together. Your mind and hormones are everywhere right now and the last thing you need on top of you not feeling to good is grief from ur fella. A baby does tie you to him but there is nothing to say you have to put his name on the b.certificate!! Please try and get some rest be it mentally or physically. Your body is going through so much right now. You and the baby come first so fook everyone else for now!! You are a strong woman and i'm sure whatever you decide to do willl be the right thing to do. GET SOME BLOODY REST WOMAN!! lol ;)

Take care and let me know ur ok?

Tara :)

Awe i know how you feel my man has been waiting forever to have a baby and also been a jerk!! They dont understand what they cant feel or know they think its SO EASY. I hope your feeling better. I know i went and got a bit of maternity counseling its helping so far maybe you can look into that? I know i dont have any support here either or friends its just me at home all day and college and my man at night. Going crazy at home all the time but once baby is here you will have so much to do you wont have time to be bored. And soon you will meet new people and have friendships so i'm lookin forward to that part as well. How are you going so far? Sorry take me long time to answer only get internet through my cell phone. Send me a note hun. Hope all is well. xx    

I hope he steps up to the plate for u. Just tell him that u need him at your appointment.  It is not just your child and that u are scared. Maybe he will do better.