Six Days

It took six days for D to text me. He told me he talked to his friend, who yelled at him for being a jack@ss and told him to listen to me. He told me he was sober. I think he was asking me to write him, but the text got cut off, so I did....

I told him the same thing I told him before. I want nothing to do with his sobriety if he can't be honest with me and himself. I said I've tried everything, and he still lies to me. It's less painful to love and miss him, pray for him, and cry to myself and God, than to be with him and have him lie to me when I confront him about my beliefs that he's still drinking. I expressed that I'm tired of the ups and downs of our relationship and don't see it changing unless he faces this issue and overcomes it. I told him that being sober now is a step but asked if he can be sober EVERY day. Can he be honest enough with himself to realize that alcohol is damaging his health, our relationship, and that it turns him into a different person? I reiterated that I'll never be a part of his future if he drinks. I told him that if he wants to drink, then do it! If he wants to quit, QUIT! And I told him to admit that he might need more help than an occasional meeting. I said that he has the knowledge and tools to accomplish sobriety, but he just has to want it bad enough to do it.

We'll see....

I feel better reiterating what I've already said before, because it lets him know that I'm really serious, but I also feel a little sad, because I really hoped that he would've been a little farther than this. I don't know why I thought this, though. Last time we talked, he didn't think his drinking was as bad as I make it out to be. But last time we talked, he was drunk. *rolleyes*