Jan 28, 2012
Okay, so today i started using his site again. I don't know what it will change, but I can feel myself slipping again. About 6 months ago, i thought i had gotten better, or fixed myself. But now all i want to do is sleep to escape my life that I'm beginning to despise. Like it just makes me think, I was so unbelieavbly ******* sure that I was finally okay. I hadn't self harmed or cried for so long. So whats the point of this ********? I don't want to feel sad again, I want to feel normal. I'm scared that i won't be able to make myself better again. And therapy is load of ****, and especially in this country, where everyone is very religious, judging my every word. And I know therapist are not supposed to judge. But they do. You can see it in there eyes. So why should I risk my recovery because of some judgmental *******? This hopelessness is not just inside my head. Its my reality.