Panic/anxiety, no depression

I've been dealing with anxiety since 1984.   A small dose of Xanax, not very often, worked. I'm slim, eat well and am very active great-grandmother. Two years ago a family situation put my panics into high gear.  They've now been resolved.  I've had 2 psychiatrists and 2 Dr's say they can't help me as I'm not depressed and sleep well.  I took all their prescriptions (SSRI's) which made me sicker than I could handle.  Xanax is the only thing that helps take the edge off.  The panic hits when I awake from a sound nights sleep. I'm on 4 mg from that time until Noon.  The afternoons and evenings are fine. Then it starts all over.  No one can figure out this pattern as yet.  

I had a disruptive childhood and later years with abandons and rejections.  My therapist says this is my problem but we haven't been able to "fix" it.  Those people are all dead and gone and I don't  think of them.

I'm thinking that I may be going thru withdrawals every morning, since I haven't had any Xanax for 18 hrs.

I've seen an MD/OB/GYN .  She deals in women's health, preferring natural supplements (mostly amino acids). Ten of those did nothing for the panic.  I'm now on 5-htp, 100 mg at bedtime and 100 a.m.  Still need the Xanax.

Any helpful suggestions.  I will not take Valium or Klonopin or any other drug to try and detox from Xanax.

Thanks,  Ruthi