Feb 20, 2012
This is the first day I have felt good in a long time, by good I mean I am out of bed. Still no shower or bath for 2 weeks, am wearing the same clothes, I have clothes and a shower, just not the omff it takes to get in... I have been depressed for so darn long. 8 vic's a day for pain, 4 soma's a day to help the vic's and have to have my 2 or 3 2 mg Xanax for panic disorder or I go insane... I am tired of living like this, rather I am tired of not living. My son is taking care of me and he is single and 26 years old. I am 46 and have been on these meds for chronic back pain for over 16 years. I am going to bath today. Maybe even try to clean the kitchen... Makeup perhaps. I will try though, that much I know, I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and I want to give my son his mother back. Wish me luck, Cat....