Feb 26, 2012 - comments
So about two weeks ago I got the diagnosis of my heart monitor. I had a 'few' ectopic or abnormal premature atrial beats. She said they were benign and everything looked normal. What a relief right?
Nope!! Just a few days ago I started getting intense PACs. I hadn't felt any at all in weeks! And now they are constant, like 2 or 3 an hour. And its really feeding my anxiety. It's like I can feel them coming and I've actually been having tightness in my chest and nausea that follow! I've also had a pounding heartbeat for the past few days which makes me feel sick as well.
Just when I thought I was getting better and consciously learning to deal with the problem, it gets worse! I'm having trouble sleeping again, I'm going to try a lorazepam tonight and see if that relaxes me enough to get at least a few hours of shut eye.
I know I shouldn't be as worried as I am since PACs aren't normally dangerous, but I'm terribly frightened that all these years of my heart beating extras or skipping and what not, that if later on down the road it will lead to an actual heart problem or worse :( what if my heart just wears out? I'm a healthy 21 year old and living in fear of having a heart attack or just dropping dead from heart failure or something. I want to enjoy the time I have with my son and I just live in constant fear and worry. What in the world can I do??
If God made these things liveable, why do I feel like I just can't? I need some help :( please!
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