Had a really insightful counseling session today. Talked about personality and identity things. I had no idea how crippled my identity is and how much I've been hiding from myself. It's really creepy, but makes me kinda proud of myself for being able to keep it together this much for this long. The meds are helping me to feel okay about life, just having terrified and depressed modes every once and a while now. I just can't wait til the sun comes out and happiness will then be so much more possible.