Mar 30, 2012
Yesterday I saw my gynecologist... she confirmed my miscarriage on 28/03/12... I was 9 weeks pregnant but as I was told a few weeks ago I'd miscarry (I think this is called a missed miscarriage)... my beta hcg was 15 yesterday. I don't really know at what stage the embryo stopped growing... I expect it stopped pretty early on or was only partially growing due to my very low beta hcg level which only rose slightly between blood tests. The pains were awful, they felt more like contractions (although I'm not sure as I've never had a baby) and lasted maybe 10 to 20 seconds each time they came... every 5 - 10 minutes. And the back pain was horrendous. The worst was the night before I miscarried and then the morning of the 28th (I passed the pregnancy tissue shorlty after around midday... at home, alone). After this happened the pains seemed to lessen a little, but still thay were like bad period cramp. After this it's like I've had a really heavy period, losing lots of blood. It's very draining. My doctor said it's better that this happens as it means everything should be expelled. I will have another beta hcg test next week to check my level is negative and then a scan in a few weeks to check all is ok.
Today (2 days since my m/c) I just feel tired, drained and a little sick (I think it's the grief that's causing the sickness). The physical pain is bearable, the emotional pain less so. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.