Happenigs Now

I have looked for other people with my same problems for years to be able to talk to and just get some feedback. I have sufferd from depression off and on for several years, but after losing my job after 30 years I was really down. But I then thought about it and realized I was to the point I was in so much pain, I couldn't actually do my job (which was sitting at a computer most of the day)anymore and didn't think I could do that anymore. Everyone who knows me suggested trying to get disability, but I have heard that this is really difficult to get. I have checked into some of the work at home jobs, but I am afraid most of them are scams.
I went to my dr. this week and had a MRI and X-rays done. He wrote up a summary for me, but like I said some of the medical terms he uses are totally Greek to me. I know there are many people out there in much worse shape than I am in, I guess that is one reason I am hesitant to apply for disability. I hear other peoples stories and it makes me thankful that I am still able to do some of the things I can still do. I guess that's abut it for now.