Feeling completely rejected and used not to mention disappointed in myself. I blame myself though, if I didn't go around playing hopscotch and jumping from people to love me then my life would be better. I wish I know how to stop, I wish I could go through life being one of the happy people. This is how I have always lived my life but it has never affected me so much before. I used to just let people ruin my heart and then I cry my tears and move onto the next person who shows me some interest. Its not even a sexual thing, I do not sleep around, its an affection thing.