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The total change in my life

Oct 27, 2008 - 5 comments
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I am sick of this. There was NOTHING wrong with me 3 months ago. It all started with a vacation to Puerto Rico. When I came back a week later, I started having insomnia pretty badly. I started having "skipped beats" in my heart maybe 1 time a week. I suffered for nearly a month before I went in to see the Doc. The doc started me on Zoloft for anxiety that he thought i had. Well it cured my insomnia but increased my heart palpitations exponentially. It was so bad that i ended up with a 2 week holter monitor, ekg, ultrasound, and bloodwork. They checked my thyroid twice. After i got sick of the way Zoloft was making me feel and the heart palpitations, I quit taking it cold turkey after 3 weeks. OMG the first week i was off I thought i sincerly thought i was going to die. I felt weak, I would start shaking, terrible irregular heart beat.- in other words, full blown panic attacks. I never had one before in my life and ended up calling the ambulance. All of my tests came back normal but i am not convinced. The doc put me on 25 mg atenolol once daily and lorazepam to try and settle my heart and calm me down. It is 5 weeks later and I am still not right. Now, I have constant pain in my chest, it feels like there is always something in my throat, and i have PVC's every time i eat. Anytime i swallow anything it hurts instantly in the middle of my chest and about 30 minutes later I start having the bad Palpitations (I feel swooping in my chest, tingling down my arms, and lightheadedness) I am absolutley scared to death. When this happens to me, I cry and cry and look at my babies and cry some more. I think this is very unfair to me, and i can't help but think that this is going to kill me before anyone figures out what is wrong. I can't  think about anything else and I have so much anxiety over it that it's tearing my family apart. I can tell my husband is scared for me, but he doesn't know what to do for me. I'm afraid to do anything that will make my heart race. I am 22 years old, female, and moderately overweight. My doc insists there is nothing wrong but i know better. I would give anything in the world to feel the way i used to (even if i have to deal with the insomnia again) I just want to be happy and not scared and i want to be happy and playful around my children without crying my eyes out because i am so incredibly scared about what would happen to them if i weren't around. I'm afraid to go to sleep at night, I stand over their cribs and silently sob. i'm afraid to drive to far from the hospital, and i'm terrified when my husband leaves me at night to work 3rd shift. My hair is falling out, and i've actually sprouted a gray - at 22. I can't calm down because my heart won't stop acting up.  The only people that listen are the people in this forum. I don't have any family or friends to talk to and i'm left with the thoughts in my head on my own mortality. I can only imagine what it is like to be around me but i just dont know what else to do. i am completely lost.

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by rgk, Nov 08, 2008
I know this may sound crazy, but could you have picked up some sort of parasite where you went in Puerto Rico?  Do a search on parasites and how they can effect the body.  Doing a thorough parasite cleanse monitored by a naturopathic doctor would be a good idea.  In fact, just seeing a naturopath would probably help to ease your worries.  I have gone through a lot of the same stuff you are talking about, and had the same unclear diagnosis you are getting from regular doctors.  Through the worst of my symptoms I learned to trust in God.  I am a believer in the Lord Jesus.  God, by His Spirit led me to read the Psalms (Old Testament of the Bible) out loud as often as I needed help.  I personalized the promises in the Psalms.  Doing this created faith in my heart.  I began to understand that God doesn't send disease on people.  Disease is in the world, but the Word of God says that if you are in Christ (Jesus) that you have overcome the world.(through His victory that He gives to us when we turn our lives over to Him and receive His Spirit into our spirit by Faith.)  This is what is known as being born again.  If you know the Lord, in this way, you already have his promises.  You just need to know what He has promised and begin to feed your spirit The Word of God to give yourself faith.  Because the Word says "faith comes by hearing the Word of God."  I am alive today because I have done this for over 15 years.  I still have struggles, but, I no longer have fears or doubts that I will be O.K.  But, I did.  In the past I was right where you are.  Pray right now and the Lord Jesus will come to you.  He will take the fear if you give it to Him.  The Bible says that Jesus was beaten and given many stripes on his body that paid for our healing.  It says that "by His stripes we were healed."  If you don't already have a relationship with The Lord, you can right now by asking Him into your heart.
Kenneth and Gloria Copeland have messages on their website www.kcm.org that can help build your understanding of what exactly Jesus has done for us.  I encourage you to visit their website.  They helped to save my life.  Candida is also a possibility.  Do a study on this online.  Candida overgrowth can happen to anyone that has ever been on antibiotics.  
I had a hiatal hernia that causes some of the symptoms you have.  You have to start right now believing that God is for you and not against you.  That He did not put this sickness on you.  He loves you and is your Healer.  I hope this isn't too much for you to take in at one time and I pray that you are open to this message.  I wouldn't mind if you emailed me personally.  ***@****  

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by rgk, Nov 08, 2008
If you will remove the slashes ( / / ) in the address you will have my email address.  I hope this works so you can write me if you'd like.  I have never visited this forum before and only by divine guidance did I come here tonight.  
rgkeeney/@/ yahoo.com

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by rgk, Nov 22, 2008
Are you doing any better?  I prayed for you tonite.  I didn't hear back from you, so I figured I probably said somethings that made you feel uncomfortable.  If you will fast (go without food) and drink only vegetable juice (fresh) or fruit juice (fresh) for a period of 10 days, also drink distilled water with real lemon juice and cayene pepper, no sugar, this will help your body to cleanse itself.  Please research this online.  You have to make a change.  Doctors may not be able to help you with this and you have to be strong.  You will be O.K.  I cannot really say on this forum what I know to be true without sounding strange or crazy, but, I have been in the same almost exact situation you are in and am speaking from experience.  Go to Church.  Pray.  Let others help you to reach out to The Lord.  He will intervene  for you.  Just let Him.
Your friend,
rgk

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by rgk, Nov 22, 2008
Find a Church where they believe in the gifts of the Holy Spirit.  I don't know where you are, but, as I mentioned before, Kenneth Copeland Ministries helped me with their teachings.  I learned what God's Word really is all about and how to use the promises like Psalm 23, or Psalm 91 to help me get through many years of the type of suffering you are experiencing.  I learned that God is not against me, but for me.  That he send Jesus to take all the sicknesses and suffering for all mankind.  I hope you will give Him a chance to reveal His Love and Power to you.  He is ever present and just a prayer away.
rgk

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by woodsman3006, Feb 15, 2010
Hi I am A 48 year old male and have had PAC's & PVC's for 32 years and just found out what they were this week after having 1 so bad deer hunting I thought I was going to die on the spot I wore the moniter for 2 weeks but it was like A safty blanket I couldnt bring 1 on drank coffe smoked like crazy even wore it deer hunting but finaly recorded 1 dr. said thats just A PAC an extra heart beat and the machine recorded 1 while I was Asleep that was A pvc I have had thousands of these over 32 years usaly just A 1 or 2er wich get my attention its like getting the wind knocked out of me for no reason and they still scare me to this day thats why im on here. but I just strted taking sotalol twice A day 80mg this is day 2 and I still am having the pac's. But im here to say I think and am covnvinced we make them worse buy overr reacting to them I seem to be like A dog thats been beat I have my gard up looking for them. And then anxity takes over but just relaxing and now knowing there not goig to kill me helps calm me down. But u will notice the will go away for monthes at A time and some of my best days are after having some of them early in the day dont be afraid of going on trips or being alone you are not going to die and the sooner you just say it will pass in A min. the less they will bother you.We cant live life like were death warmed over. Because were not.Most peole dont even feel them were just super sensitive to are bodys I have to do the same and now that I know what they are I will.You will be fine
Mark from MI.

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