I thought I had done real goo

Well everyone reading this..I just showed God I really didn't give everything to him after all.  I thought I had been doing real well until on my way for my CT scan.  Since hearing the news last week that my possible, swollen lymph nodes could mean cancer, I was handling things just fine.  Guess what?  I finally lost it on my way to get my scan done.  I was crying so hard I had to stop the car.  We won't even go there.    When I arrived to the clinic for my scan it was a real nightmare.The time was wrong. I did need an IV even after I asked the scheduler if I would need one.  I would have to have a nurse in urgent care start it.  The tec wanted to insist I let him try.  Decided I wasn't going to be a difficult pt.  So.. after 2 failed attempts I went into another part of the building to get some one else to try.  Every thing including the scan only took 4 1/2 hours.  Well.. I decided everyone praying for me didn't do it in vain as... I could not have cried on my way in but  instead take out all my fear, uncertainity and emotionalism on the tecs, the nurses, the machines, the scheduler, and then I would be waiting in line to get booked into the local jail for at least disrupting the peace.  The miracles of today, now after pouring out my guts are:  1. I have a loving GOD, loving family, and loving church family.  2.  In this day and age I am exceptionally lucky to have medical insurance, that really has taken very good care of not only me and hubby, but my immediate family also.  3.  I did not have to drive 3-4 hours to get the medical care I need,  So.. just because I showed my human nature I still am a very lucky person and a child of GOD.