May 08, 2012
I've been a member for about 2 years now. But I've fallen off. Slowly but surely I began to feel defeated. I've been TTC for almost 4 years now. It has been devastating to say the least. When I became a member I was charting my BBT and marking ovulation. After so long without ever having a positive on a pregnancy test I gave up charting.
To add to the stress everyone I come in contact with feels the need to ask when I'm having kids, no matter how many times they have asked this question before. I even have strangers asking me "What are you waiting for, When are you going to have a baby". Its incredibly rude. I wish people would think before they talk. I always handle it with a smile on my face but inside it really hurts.
Well I'm finally in a position to be more proactive. My husband started a new job and with it we have expensive but helpful insurance. They will cover basic fertility treatment and some advance. We have an appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist tomorrow. And guess what, that's also my 30th birthday. Maybe it will be good luck, lol. 30 is a big number for me. I always thought I would have 2 kids by now. Those dreams may be crushed but I'm happy that at least were taking this step to get some answers. I can't wait for tomorrow!