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Distancing from family

Feb 06, 2008 02:09PM - 5 comments

Last night I had a really bad epistode with panic.  My heart didn't get racing too fast but that's been the case with a lot of my panic lately.  My heart will generally be fine but I still can't shake my feeling that something really bad is happening to me at that moment.  A tried to weather it for as long as I could but ended up taking 1/2 of an ativan after a couple hours.  Even with that it still took another 3 hours for me to wind down enough to where I could go to sleep.

I feel really bad because lately it's been the case where I have to isolate myself when these attacks hit.  I have to send everyone out of the room and just lie there suffering for hours on end.  My wife was definitely hurt last night when I kicked her and the baby out but she was more understanding afterward.  Still, it's something I hate to have to do.  It's total ********.  Why can't I just get a prescription or something and get over these damned attacks.  I'm trying to attack this on all fronts but counseling alone isn't helping and my doctor doesn't seem to give a rip during our $190 2-minute face-to-face contact.  I feel okay now but I'm already dreading a repeat of last night tonight, which will most likely happen because I am practically willing it to happen by worrying about it right now.

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by Elizabeths_Mom, Feb 06, 2008 08:35PM
I feel your pain!  I would ditch the therapist (never helped me) and the doctor and find a family doctor (just tell him you want to try it and think that Paxil CR would help) who will prescribe you Paxil CR (works round the clock, take once a day, and doesn't make you tired like regular Paxil).  It takes those panic attacks, worry moments away so that you can live life freely.  It takes about 3 weeks before it kicks in but it's well worth.  It has totally transformed my life.  I can go out now and not be afraid or worry about it.  Also, for immediate relief, try Klonopin.  Works within like 5-10 minutes.  It's great!  

by Liit, Feb 07, 2008 01:32AM
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Facing your situation which no one could help.No doctors can even help coz it is matter of how you accept your self.Accepting your situation in a positive way could help how to handle all the attack.

Getting pills would not do any good coz yould get yourself hook on it...



by portraitofgrace, Feb 07, 2008 09:30AM
try to see a chiropractor,.  Doctors are quick to give a prescription to help the sympton, but how will you correct the problem. Chiropractors relax you, mine for example adjusts me but also gives some natural remedy advice.  Everything stems from our nervous system.  all of the parts of our bodies, he has told me stories on how he has helped people, its amazing. All natural. try it. good luck,  remember also, to breathe, i find at anxious times, we forget to breathe deeply.  

by lilyahvall, Feb 14, 2008 03:12PM
I hate those moments.  Just lying there, not knowing what to do with yourself until it passes...I am usually fine until about 20 minutes after my head hits the pillow.  then all of the anxiety creeps up on me.  I end up lying in bed, shaking and sweating and tingling until I can't take it anymore.  Then I'm up and pacing the floors - hoping I don't wake anyone else up.  Sometimes I get online and play a game or read this message board until I'm falling asleep at the computer.  Then I crawl into bed, the anxiety keeps me awake for another few hours (usually after 2am) and I eventually wear myself out to the point where I can't even worry or be anxious anymore and my body succumbs to sleep.  Then 6am rolls around and I'm SO not ready for it.

I wish there was a good medication out there.  One that actually worked without any weird side-effects.  I'm hoping with a new doctor and a therapist to talk to that I might be able to figure something out.  The key is finding something that works for YOU.  Good luck!

by sandi875th, Feb 14, 2008 10:56PM
I know what I'm about to say iseasier said than done but it can be done. At one point in my life I was in a constant state of panic, I was hospitalized for a few days and I had to work very hard to get control. Here is what I did...At night I went to bed and turned on my tv and I would watch some of my favorite shows, they made me laugh and lifted my spirit. At any moment that I felt panic I would jump up outta bed and throw cold water on my face and shake it off. I had to keep my mind off the panic attack. I would tell myself that I was not gonna panic. My husband was alot of help too. He rubbed my arms and hands,fingers, legs just rub rub rub it helped me relax. Everyone can find something that helps them to relax, you need to find out what that is! A hot bath, a brisk walk, a good movie, never watch a scary movie!! Try not to talk about panic attacks...it can bring one on. Get your mind off them. Start this one day at a time untill you start finding things that help keep your mind off panic. Once you find something, do it each time you feel panic, depend on it, trust it and than it will help you. I had a new born baby, each time I felt panic, I could breast feed the baby and it would calm me.I looked forward to the baby waking to eat. hell, I even woke her at times!! I also could sit out in the sun and the warmth calmed me. Watching out the window watching it rain helped me. There are so many things that you can take and make it yours to stop panic. Natural things in life. Start finding out what yours is than day by day you will get better. I never believed I could but I am proud to say I do not have panic attacks. I get anxious at times but thats when I start using things around me to calm me. I hope I have helped in some way. I sure understand what your going through and I know you feel hopeless but you can beat this! REMEMBER..STOP THINKING ABOUT PANIC and start living your life.

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