May 10, 2012
Well I finished my last dose of Lupron today as well as decreased the Estradiol. Boy we‘re close!! I'm scared and tearful!! I'm scared because l had such a traumatic miscarriage and tearful because I want this soooooooo bad!!!!!
My first BFP, I went the entire seven weeks believing I was pregnant with a healthy fetus because the beta continued to double. I must say......I have no faith in BETA testing. I've known some women to have a low beta and have healthy babies and women like myself who beta numbers hit the 25,000+ mark but eventually miscarry. Then there's the spotting and bleeding!! Some women have successful pregnancies and women like me miscarry. I've realized there is no definitive answer in early pregnancy!! Who knows what one woman will experience. I just wish I had a crystal ball. This is all just sooooo annoying. The fact that I have UNEXPLAINED INFERTILITY is driving me mad!! It's been five years since we've been actively trying to conceive!! I’m looking forward and trying my best to maintain a positive outlook. I'm trying to keep my faith and just BELIEVE!!!
May 8, 2012 estrogen 296, lining 8.4
***FET May 16, 2012 @ 1045, transferring two 6 day blast snow babies***