Nov 07, 2008
I've been watching the Locator, a new show where people are reunited, usually following an adoption. This awakened a long felt desire to find the 3 siblings with whom I share our biological father. This past weekend, I located an uncle and had a lovely conversation and he gave me the name and telephone number of one of my brothers.
After summoning a little courage, I made a call, asked a few questions and then introduced myself. Much to my surprise, he knew of me! While a tiny bit awkward, we both expressed a desire to meet and mentally I made note to not call him for a week to allow him time to process the information, contact his siblings and perhaps change his mind.
He called early this week and we have arranged to meet on Saturday with he and his sister. I'm not sure if the other brother is coming yet or not.
Much to my surprise, his wife called on Wednesday evening and we talked for half an hour before she handed the phone off to her husband and we talked for another 2 hours, and retired the battery on his wife's cell phone, switched to his and then exhausted mine. It has awakened emotions I didn't know existed and there is happiness, sadness, excitement, loss, grief and curiosity all taking their turns and surfacing.
A healing is also taking place and the hole in my heart is starting to mend as we shared that we realized we each wanted to contact the other one for more than 30 years. We failed to do so ... each believing the other one did not know the other existed ... and not wanting to rock their world or cause any pain. We are much alike.
So, please forgive me for not being online as much this week. Between these events and working OT at work, it has been a little difficult. Will be online most of the weekend, except Saturday night from 3:00 on .. as we meet at 5:00.
Wish me luck .. this is another chapter in this continuing journey .. and a milestone for personal growth. And, you know the best part? I no longer fill the emotional voids with food ... think better of me than that. Learning to be kind to yourself and forgive yourself is one of the keys to weight loss success.
(((Hugs))) to all ... and have a wonderfully healthy weekend.
Remember, live chat is on Tuesday evening and the Thanksgiving challenge starts in about 10 days!