What is going on here?

I have been very compliant with everything the doctors have told me to do.  I know I have multiple things to deal with, first the hashimoto, then the celiac and now for the past 2 months anxiety, some panic and depression.  Things seem to being going ok and then 2 months ago my thyroid jumped up 3 points and the anxiety, depression and now some panic started.  My thyroid is back down to normal a couple of weeks ago but symptoms still persist.  I have been taking a natural antidepressant L-5HTP and it has been wonderful, no side effects, weight loss but it is no longer doing the job of helping the depression and hopelessness and not wanting to live to go through all of this stuff.  I have been pushing through and believing God and going for counselling and even have started a new hobby, making earrings which does help to put my mind of something else.   I feel I have no choice now but to go to my psychiatrist and have him give me an antidepressant which in one way I am looking forward to some relief but in another way am scared to death of taking it.  I hope somebody reads this and can encourage me in the things that are going on and the pattern that it is taking.  I am waiting for the results of my blood test taken on Monday to see if the thyroid has changed but everyday is a challenge to get through.  My mood swings are awful.  I try with everyting I have to stay stabile and hopeful but it catches me and I zoom down and want to die because of feeling so hopeless.  Then I manage to zoom up again and be ok for a while.  I am still taking the lorazapam and the natural antidepressant until I can see my doctor on Tuesday.  Please if anybody reads this and can help to put my mind at ease about taking a real antidepressant help me.    linda    I may post something on the forum. but you can answer here if you will.