Dec 03, 2008
so day is day number 2 without my trams. this isn't in an effort to get off of them, only financial troubles right now. i have to say i never thought i would have such severe side effects from not having them. dare i say, withdrawal? i have these weird zap things in my skull, and feel as if i'm on the verge of tears at any second. i have a severely low threshold for any sort of stress right now as well. felt as if i tackled the hugest job just waking up and driving my daughter to school. today is much worse than yesterday. i had lortabs that a friend of mine gave me just to alieviate the pain in my jaw, garbage. didn't work at all. the worst part of this is even the fentanyl patch i had saved from a painful episode awhile back isn't even doing the trick. i feel as if i'm not even wearing it at all. if there was a way to knock down my tolerance i would do it in a heartbeat. but for such a tiny little person, i'm a horse. i know a lot of this is due to the tramadol not only taking the inflammation out, but also working on whatever lingering depression i may have. i take it and i can conquer the world. without it i'm hardpressed to straighten my back until noon or later. and the pain in my jaw is so bad i can't tell you how much i just want to end it. i just don't know how to get thru this. i have no one. i'm a faithful person, a praying person... and even thru that i'm losing my will.