Why does this have to be so hard?

After my last m/c in January 07 we tried for 10 months with no sucess. I went on birth control pills for 4 months to try and regulate things. I am now back in the TTC swing, this is our first month back in. I made it through the first half of things, and it appears that I ovulated, I am now in my TWW. I had forgotten how much this eats away at you. I need to have an HSG to see if my tubes are blocked and my ******* insurance company wont pay, I just found out that it will be $1000. But I am not sure that I even want to do it, because even if they find something, the insurnace wont pay to fix it. How is it that they will pay for penile implants for men that cant fget an erection, but my infertility is considered as unqualified under their "vanity" clause. I am vane because I want to have a baby?  I want someone to tell me how to propose legislation to the state government, other states have laws that require the insurance to cover at least some things, why cant Missouri? I have seen things about individual people that push things through government, I want to be that person because this is the very definition of injustice. I guess thats my soap box for the day.