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God Has Been Whispering to Me

Dec 20, 2008 04:02PM - 37 comments
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I dont know why, but the story im going to tell has been on my mind heavily all day ....I took a nap woke up and it was right there nagging me ...I really believe in intuition and I think Im supposed to share this for a reason i dont know yet.

All I ever wanted since childhood was two things to be a mom and to be a nurse.Well I go to be a nurses aide and thats close enough. the mom part is what I supposed to talk about,

I lost my first baby, it was a girl,,,my heart was so broken..I wasnt supposed to concieve again for 3 cycles according to my doctor...well I was young didnt know what I know now about health,,,and I conceived in 6 weeks....at 11 weeks i began hemmorging very hard..thought : Oh no please God not again....went to er..they said I had not lost the baby but likely would ...my obgyn said for me to come in 3 days . He advised me to put an ice bag on the uterus for an hour and off for an hour and to stay off my feet except for quick bathroom needs,

I had a series of dear friends who came over every hour when my husband was at work to hand me my ice pack ..pour me a drink etc,,,,I prayed and prayed..the bleeding didnt stop but it slowed a lot,

Went to doctors.he said Im so suprised I truely thought you where going to miscarry,, Now we need to do an ultrasound to check on the babys heart....my heart dropped ..was my baby alive? The nurse did the ultra sound I saw the 12 week baby his ( didnt know sex then) heart was so tiny I didnt know what it was but i heard it beep. beep...

When i got home I will never ever forget this moment, I sat on the couch,,looked up at the ceiling..silent tear of joy rolled down my face ..out loud I said " thank you God" and I felt him I felt God so deep in my heart, It was the purest moment of faith I have ever experienced.

the duration of my pregnancy wasnt easy I was on bed rest for 5 months I did not care my baby was going to live...the labor was long and the delivery had complications he was in distress when born,,,,,now he is 6 foot 180 lbs...

Thank you God indeed...when we have nothing else we have faith .hope and love .

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I SO agree...my 'miracles' literally started, before I was born.  What I've heard all my life, was that my mother was "allergic" to my blood type, and the plans were made to be ready for a "blue baby" [for those who don't know, they slit just under both knees of the baby, and drain the old blood, as they transfuse new blood...and I only heard that "blue baby" term used on some program I was watching sometime this past week, where they said regarding a blue baby "don't bother to name the child, it won't live, blue babies rarely do"...SO [first miracle of my life] one month before my birth, my blood type changed...it became exactly what my Mom's was...O negative [universal donor, I can give to anybody, can only get O-...or it'll kill me.]

Next 'miracle' was really a [miraculous] "vision"...when I was 5 years old...a very stormy night, my sister and I shared a room, but separate beds...and lightening scared me, so I got in bed with her.  We always kept the windows above our beds opened about 4-5 inches [for the fresh air]...so, I woke up, raised up on my little elbows, looked into the backyards of neighbors...one yard away...I saw this totally white, almost 'glowing' figure of Jesus, His long hair, his facial features, wearing a long robe, holding a lantern in one hand, and motioning to me with the other hand...as if to say..."come to me"...it scared/confused/perplexed me...I rubbed my eyes, 'thinking I don't know if I'm seeing what I'm seeing'...the vision was still there when I opened my eyes, and I scooted back down had put the cover over my head!

I was raised Catholic, but have ALWAYS had this 'close' relationship with Jesus...I haven't gone to Mass in years, NEVER thought any 'man' culd forgive my "sins"...and in fact, when I made my "First Confession"...since I didn't believe in what a priest could do, there was a small light in the confessional, so I just held my little prayer/list of sins book, and just used 'that list' as my sins!

There have been other occurrences, but would take up toom much "room" here...I'll just leave you with Godspeed, and God bless you [literally] my sister.  Stay faithful.

What a beautiful life story. Thank you so much for sharing.

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm sure that everyone will be inspired to never lose hope or faith. Anything can happen; even when hope seems to be lost. Thank you, once again.

Wow, isn't God amazing? He is so good! That's why I love him so much! He does hear our prayers! Thanks so much for sharing. It was a blessing and inspiration to hear your story!
God bless you and your "baby" (all 6 feet of him!)
April

Thank you for sharing your story...at a time when my faith can waiver, your words ring true in my heart.

Wow Cherie you have told me this story beofre but it still makes me cry that now youre son is so strong, you did a wonderful job, by keeping the faith.

Cherie,

Thank you so much for sharing Its so great and wonderful I'm truly at a loss for words, GOD Bless You!!!

jimi :o)

Wow! God is so amazing! He has worked miracles in my life and those around me. I have 6 healthy children, and Im currently engaged. Before me, my fiance (well his ex wife) lost 3 children due to MC. I have lost 3 with him in the last 14 months. We were thinking chromosonal abnorm. on his part. I didnt plan on getting pregnant again, but lo and behold, 3 mon. after my last MC i was. I was SO sure I was going to lose this one, I did not get my hopes up, or attached. I went to the doc at 7weeks , DEF. NOT expecting to see a HB on the US. I was so totally shocked when I saw it. I cried. Thank you God! I knew I was not out of the woods by no means, but its the fartherest we had gotten. I prayed and prayed and I had this feeling that God said "its going to be ok this time". The doc also warned me with my history that it was still iffy. Well I am currently 17 weeks (tomorrow) and 2 out of the 3 genetic tests have come back fine :) I go Jan. 12th for my level 2 US and I know its going to be just fine. The LOrd is watching over and protecting this little miracle from above. Every time I look at this baby, after its born, Im going to see the miracle. Iknow all my children are blessings from above, but this is our miracle. I feel God puts these trials (my MC's) in our life to glorify Him in the end. And that, He will be! What a lovely, inspiring story, and thank you for sharing that! God bless!

awwww thats so amazing

In our times of distress GOD can be so wonderful if we would only ask..thanks for sharing cheri...brian

cherie, im so glad for you that you think god helped you ,.and he prob did i dont know ,.......
all i know is ,he knew i was in so much pain at the time my daughter died ,.yes my son was only 3 years dead at that time ,
so i wounder why he didnt answer my my payers ,........in i asked him to give me stranght ,...not to take more from me ,...in my daughter dying just sfter my son ,.......i only asked him for the strenght to get my family through marks death ,.and my strenght was taking from me in tracys dying them ,
as i can see thes he gives to some and takes for others ,........

Oh Bernie, I feel so bad for you. Your pain is still so fresh, I can see it. I wish there was something I could do to help. I know you think God didn't hear your prayers. He hears all our prayers. We may not ever understand everything but he hears. He has to work with our free will, though, and sometimes we choose to do things that are not in God's will. Your children were in pain and chose to take their lives to deal with the pain. It isn't God's fault any more than it's God's fault for any of the pain and darkness on this earth. We live in a fallen world. We will never have perfection here on this earth. I do think he understands when we are feeling such sorrow. I believe he is very close during these times. Sometimes we just can't see him or hear him but he's still there. I know that he wants to comfort you if you can let him. I think it might even benefit you to find a support group near you of other parents who have lost children. That can really help if you have others there to help you through this. I don't know how anyone could go through this alone. You need lots of support right now. I will keep praying for you. God cares, Bernie. He sees your tears and he even cries with you. I hope you can find some peace and comfort soon.
God be with you,
*Big Hugs*
April

I feel there's God, deep deep down inside, because I've had subtle 'help' and love from an Eternal Presence when in the greatest darknesses of my life. Help has come in small but very beautiful and clear ways, for instance, once, when three dearest loved ones all died within months of each other, and then my dog died too, and I sat on the back step in an empty silence, I reached out to God and asked Him to show me His love, to show me, right there and then, that I was not alone as I thought I was. The morning was hollow, empty, grey. That second, a Robin came right down in front of me, about 2 feet away from me, and stared at me for a long time, didn't fly away and didn't get scared when I moved. To me that meant something was showing me I certainly was not alone, and to not lose hope.

I love how God does that! He often uses creation to speak to us. Sometimes he's trying to speak to us and get our attention but we can't seem to see him. I used to keep a journal during a very dark time in my life. I didn't understand where God was and had been crying out to him a lot. Well, sometimes he answered things so subtly that I nearly missed it. Looking back over my journal, I realized that God had been there all along. Yes, I had to go through a tough time but he brought me through it and taught me a lot through it. I don't know if I would have missed a lot if I hadn't written it down. I believe he hears all of us and cares deeply about us. I really do.

thanks April ,.......im sorry i wrote that with tears flowing down my face ,....but i kept on writing it ,.i made mistakes trying to see ,...but you still knew what i was writing ,.so thanks for answering me ,.........
you have said its still raw ,you are so right it is and i dont know what to do ,..
i have been everywhere talking to different people ,.but you know what people dont want to hear anymore of me ,
im not been nasty or anything like that ,...they have all they have to say and dont know anymore themselves what to say ,
i cant help feeling the way i do,,......i was there mother ,i am part of my children ,.and part of me is dead allready ,......people say im strong, im not if i was i would be like the rest of the mothers out there that have lost there kids ,they are getting on with there lifes why ??cant i ,.god did save one of my kids from cancer ,.i should be gratful for that so why dont i feel it ........yes i should be greatful for having 2 out of 4 kids and i want to feel that inside but i cant ,..
because something is eating at me and i cant put my finger on it ,.was it kevin he saved from cancer ,??
could he telling me he has been with me not in the form of a butterfly ,bird ,or anything else, but in helping kevin ,my son . ,.........

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In many, many ways, Bernie. In many ways. I still think you should try and find a support group with other parents who lost children. They would understand what you're feeling better than anyone else in the world. It would be a great relief to you, I really feel that. I know I can't pretend to understand and know everything you're feeling but I do feel for you. I hope you will be able to find some peace soon.
*Hugs*
April

i will try and find one ,i will ,......there are not Meny suicide groups out there , because people like me feel a stigma
attached to them ,...there are a lot of things surrounding the death of a loved one through suicide ,.
i would go but its finding one ,....i dont know were to even start ,............

I'm not sure what they'd have in Ireland. I know we have support group hotlines in our phone book here in the U.S. Do you have anything like that there? I'd ask around. I'm sure they'd have something like that. It doesn't have to be just about suicide. It could just be a support group for parents who have lost children.
Cherie, forgive us for hijacking your journal!

hi there. i found links to support groups in the uk---will send via message (don't think we can post links here).............gm

So many different type of responses to the first story/experience "God has been whispering to me." Emotions run so deep. I truely believe in God's assitance and that everything happens for a reason and for his Glory. He is always there; sometimes its our ability to focus and connect with him that becomes impaired. I can think of many many times in my life where I know God interacted. I could go on and on, but there were times I did not think so at the time. Only until later did I see the reason why we went through some of the things we did and the growth that came from it. One instance though is still fresh in my mind. It was my first pregancy. I was so nervous about the whole thing. It took us four year to be pregant and when I went into labor I was tense. I had very bad back labor. It was so very painful and lasted for many many hours. The doctor and nurse came in and said I was only half way there. I was at the point of quiting. Not sure how, but felt that way. I remember looking at the windwo and wondering how I could get there to jump. I know that sounds crazy and I did not attempt or would I but I was at the end of what I could handle. Just then I prayed " Dear Lord, I cannot do this any longer; please help me!" I suddenly had a different feeling; like a pushing feeling. The intense type of pain I was having in my back was no longer. I told my husband and he could see there was something very very different. He called for help but no one came. He ran out into the hall yelled for help. The nurses said the doctor was just in and she is only half way there. He came in and I said I wanted to push. He ran out again and had to litterly yell and treaten to get the doctor back in again. Our first daughter arrived about 10 minutes later; a health 8 lb 9 oz. baby girl. The staff was so shoked. Yes, it definitely was an answer to a prayer for help. I gave up and handed it over to God. This was 30 years ago; 6 children and 8 grandchildren. God is Good. We have had our share of loss as well, but we will meet those who have gone before us when God calls us home.

Mama Mia Cherrie,

You have a six foot 180 pound baby....... Holy smoke.............Just kidding........ But you truly have experienced the wonders of the Great Spirit............Nobody knows why we must walk the paths we walk............Sometimes we are given moccasins and a pony to make the going easier and faster.......Other times we are, it seems we are all alone..........
In that loniliness we have to remember The Great Spirit is always with us...........Gently guiding us around the obstacles that present themselves..............
If you haven't realized as of yet, one of the many blesssings you recieved with this troubled path, was the ability to share it with others......That is the true energy of the Great Spirit........Continue to share that my dear friend....... Show others the power of love for yourself by taking time for them in this way ................There are many examples above that show how the Great Spirit moves through each of us...........It is us that have to make the world able to see what it is that we see......

gator...I felt compelled to write that story..pushed if you will..I felt there is one person who will read it and it may really help them in a big way...I think I know who that person is now but will respect privacy....Yes...faith can move mountains..

To April and Bernie and all

Anytime you want to use one of my journals to help one of my dearest friends please feel free...Bernie I wrote you a note..we are all supossed to be here to help each other ,,no matter what form,,and as I said I really felt forced to write what I did God wanted me to share that story.

,i know god wanted you to share that story ,......and im sorry if i ruined it Cherie it was a lovely story
just like the rest of them ,.....IL have to keep my big mouth shut from now on ,.
i am sorry Cherie ,........,..

Bernie I think you misunderstood me,,,you can use my journal anytime..Im glad it helped you to express your feelings!!!!
U runined nothing...you added faluable feelings...!!!!!I I miss talking with you...

Beautiful story, and God is so good isnt he! I do believe that He speaks to us and when we listen we can hear Him! I too am a miracle from God. I was born with a rare disorder and was basically sent home to die. Now after 43 years of life I still believe that the power of prayer and faith kept me alive. Thank you for sharing your story with us. We need to remind people that God is still performing miracles and communicating with us. God bless you

I just read your story it was so bueatiful im so glad you shared it its amazing the way things happen like that and to think he is healthy and happy thats so wonderful.

It is hard to wonder about why things happen. My grandmother also had 2 m/c like me but 7 live births. The last one (my uncle) was born at 5 months and the Dr told my grandma to be prepared for him to leave her, but he grew to be 6'4 240 and just retired from the military. He ran into that Dr. with my grandma one day and she could only laugh at the look of shock when she introduced them. It's so great to hear stories with happy endings, especially when trying to come to terms with sad endings. Thank you for sharing your story.

Amen to that!  I too, like so many of us, have had miracles happen to us or someone we know.  My faith has carried me through so many difficult times, and to know that God and our angels are always with us to protect, guide, heal, and teach us our lessons for this lifetime, makes the trauma and difficulties of life much easier to handle.  One experience I can share is that about 8 years ago, I was quite ill.  I was living alone.  I collapsed on the floor and felt very sure that if I didn't get help, I would probably die.  I was conscious about me lying on the floor, but unable to move.  Suddenly I was aware of a "person" or "energy of a person" floating above me.  I felt an extreme heat sensation along my body, and next thing I knew I was up walking around, still ill, but able to walk.  I managed to get up to the top apartment and asked them to call an ambulance for me.  They took me into their home to wait for the ambulance.  At least that is what I thought had happened.

My daughter has told me that I never made it up to the apartment.  I was outside staggering around and the landlord saw me and called the ambulance.  They found me outside and not in the upstairs apartment like I was so sure I had been.    Explain that one!

My point is, I truly believe God and may guardian angel stepped in and literally almost carried my outside so I could get help.  Here I am today, alive and well.  Thank you God.

Thank you so much for sharing this.  I really think God told you to write this for ME.  hehe.  Yea I've been pretty shaken up about the spotting for two days now (8w) and i have been on the go with no down time lately.  I definitely think this answered my delimma of taking the day off today or not.  My gut was telling me i need to take a day to rest and use an ice pack.  But work was waiting so i almost went on in anyway.

Today is gonna be my rest (and prayer) day.

The dr. tells me this spotting is common as my placenta begins to form (especially with twins) And everything really appears to be ok.  The babies had good healthy heartbeats yesterday.

Thank you again for sharing, and please continue to listen for those whispers.  It really means more than you will ever know.

What beautiful stories of faith and hope...God definitely does answer every prayer, but, sometimes, the answer is No...that's where Faith comes into play, we have to have Faith that God knows what's best at all times, His will be done and we must abide...thank you all for sharing...

Your right I have often thought of that when the answer is no we dont always get the reason but there is one !!

I just re-read this, and again it brought heart felt tears to my eyes. Thank You soooo much for Sharing =0)

What a fantastic story of faith. I had a miscarriage very early oninmy 1st pregnancy. I was only 4 weeks or so. Like you from childhood all I ever wanted to be was a mother. (Now I also want to be a nurse someday)

After my miscarriage mysoctor reccomended that I wait at least 3 cycles and take birthcontrol for a while to regulate things agian! I decided agnist and said to God I was leaving it up to him and when I had ababy it was becaue it was his will.... I thought that it would be a while and found out noteven 4 weeks alter that I was indeed pregnant agian with my son Julian who is now 1 and the joy of my life.... I truly feel that he is a blessing directly from God!

Thanks for sharing your story! God Bless

Yes, thanks so much for sharing. It brought tears to my eyes......But what a beautiful story!!!!

What a beautiful testimony of faith!! Thank you for sharing it & may God bless you & your family!

Our God is an awesome God! So glad that He has blessed you!!!



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