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AFTER A LONG NITE OF NO SLEEP FROM SETH HAVING A FIT I FEEL WORE OUT TIRED AND JUST OUT OF RESOURCES OF WHAT I NEED SETH HIT AND CURSED HIS GRANDMOTHER LAST NITE AFTER HE BITE ME SEVERAL TIMES AND KICKED ME AND SPIT IN MY FACE I TRY TO DO MY BEST WITHOUT SETTING HIM OFF BUT NO MATTER IF I LET HIME GET HIS WAY ALL DAY LONG THE ONE TIME I ASK FOR HIM TO DO SOMETHING SIMPLE HE BLOWS OFF THE HANDLE AND GOES INTO A MOMENT THAT LAST FOR HOURS SOMETIMES. I HAVE GREAT SUPPORT FORM MY FRIENDS AND SOME OF MY FAMILY BUT NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TO DO. IM TAKING SETH TO LAKESIDE THIS AFTERNOON IN HOPES THAT MABEY HE WILL GET SOME TYPE OF HELP THIS TIME. AFTER REFUSING HIM TWICE ALREADY MABEY THIS TIME WILL HELP. THEY SAY HE DOESNT MEET ALL THE TERMS TO STAY THEIR BUT HOW FAR DOES IT HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY HELP????? I DONT WANT ANYONE TO GET HURT OR EMOTIONALY TATTED FROM THIS. IF WE COULD JUST GET HIM ON THE RITE DOSES OF MEDS AFTER ONE YR OF BEING DX WITH BIPOLAR AND ADHD YOU THINK IT WOULD WORK BY NOW

IN MY TERMS IM SO SCARED THAT THIS WILL NEVER END AND THAT IT WILL GET WORSE AND WHEN I THINK OF HOW IT COULD GET WORSE IT HURTS MY HEART SO BAD BECAUSE HE JUST DONT SEEM LIKE MY CHILD SOMETIMES AND IM SCARED.........

I LOVE HIM WITH MY ALL AND WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON HIM AND PRAY EVERYNITE THAT HE WILL GET BETTER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!