a revelation of sorts

ok so i work the midnight shift at a local hospital. we are a small hospital and it gets quite boring and sometimes i'm even tempted to take a nap!! lol. (i work in admissions so don't worry i do not have clinical contact with patients!) anyhow, that has absolutely nothing to do with what my journal entry is about. i just needed to clarify that i do not sleep at night b/c i work so i have to sleep during the day.

well, as i was sleeping yesterday i began dreaming. it was one of those dreams where you felt like you were really there. lucid dreaming is the correct term, but anyhow, my dream was me peeing on a pregnancy pee stick test and it revealing that i was indeed pregnant. i could feel every little think. i felt myself peeing, i saw the two pink lines clear as day!!! i felt all the wonderful emotions that rush through your body when you realize after months of trying that you are actually preggers! it was so amazing. when i awoke, it was as though all of it had really happened. then i realized i was awake and how much it sucked that it was only a dream....

however, i am a firm believer in deja vu. i have had it happen to me several times throughout my life. i have a great feeling about this. i am completely at peace with everything. i honestly feel that my ttc days are about to come to an end. call it what you will. you may think i'm crazy or you may think it was just a dream...but i call it a revelation. something wonderful is about to take place and i couldn't be more ready!!