Jun 23, 2012
I seriously need help. I keep over analyzing every little incident in my head that has occurred before yesterday's test just to make sure I don't have to do it again for any reason. Right now I have anxiety over last Saturday night, I went out and had two drinks with this older guy I had been out with a couple of times before. We went to the bar, and at some point during the night I went to the bathroom and left my drink on the table. Maybe that was a bad move? Afterwards we went to grab some food. He was supposed to drive me home but we both had to use the bathroom while we were on the road, and his place was closer so we decided to head back there. The guy is not legal to drive over here (he just moved back here four months ago from Nigeria), and cops in the area were Doing road checks. So once we reached his place, he told me that one of his friends would drive me home as soon as he got in from The City. I was suddenly very sleepy. I told him that I couldn't stay the night, and he understood but told me I could catch some sleep if I wanted so I did. After a few hours he woke me up to tell me his friend was back, and they both drove me home.
What I'm now afraid of is, is it possible he could have raped me in my sleep without me knowing? I was in a deep sleep, he told me he had watched me sleep and kissed my forehead. I didnt think anything ill of it at the time, but now of course it has me freaking out with worry.
I actually asked him yesterday if he did anything to me and he was appalled by the question and denounced me, calling me a sad person. Am I crazy? Do you think this is just me being an emotional basketcase still due to what happeb to my brother or should I test again?