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Is sleep rape possible? More irrationality or a real reason to re-test?

Jun 23, 2012 - 6 comments
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I seriously need help. I keep over analyzing every little incident in my head that has occurred before yesterday's test just to make sure I don't have to do it again for any reason. Right now I have anxiety over last Saturday night, I went out and had two drinks with this older guy I had been out with a couple of times before. We went to the bar, and at some point during the night I went to the bathroom and left my drink on the table. Maybe that was a bad move? Afterwards we went  to grab some food. He was supposed to drive me home but we both had to use the bathroom while we were on the road, and his place was closer so we decided to head back there. The guy is not legal to drive over here (he just moved back here four months ago from Nigeria), and cops in the area were Doing road checks. So once we reached his place, he told me that one of his friends would drive me home as soon as he got in from The City. I was suddenly very sleepy. I told him that I couldn't stay the night, and he understood but told me I could catch some sleep if I wanted so I did. After a few hours he woke me up to tell me his friend was back, and they both drove me home.

What I'm now afraid of is, is it possible he could have raped me in my sleep without me knowing? I was in a deep sleep, he told me he had watched me sleep and kissed my forehead. I didnt think anything ill of it at the time, but now of course it has me freaking out with worry.

I actually asked him yesterday if he did anything to me and he was appalled by the question and denounced me, calling me a sad person. Am I crazy? Do you think this is just me being an emotional basketcase still due to what happeb to my brother or should I test again?

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by Teak, Jun 23, 2012
No you could not have been raped and not know.

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by Needreassurance22, Jun 23, 2012
Even though I didn't feel the said "forehead" kiss? I would've woke up if I was being penetrated, correct? Even If I was drugged? I was sleeping for a couple of hours before he woke me up.
Teak you do an amazing job here dealing with people like me And staying patient. No re-test?

Why am I so obsessed. What's wrong with me, man. And will I ever get over it now that my own little brother is infected?

The guy in question is so offended by me asking him that, with every right I guess. He's denied it to fullest extent. Move on?

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by Needreassurance22, Jun 23, 2012
It's just hard to believe who's shady and who's not anymore. The man who I believe infected my brother was a cop and was always so nice to my brother. ******* creep.

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by Needreassurance22, Jun 23, 2012
Eh, Teak?  :(

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by Teak, Jun 23, 2012
Yes, move on.

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by Needreassurance22, Jun 23, 2012
I'm trying. I was so relieved with a test result that I didn't even need yesterday and then I think of new **** to worry over. This **** is like a sickness in and of itself.

I keep thinking what the hell did I fall asleep at his house for. And now im questioning how suddenly the sleep came, and if I was drugged or just naturally tired given the time of night it was. And how he insisted that I "just get some sleep", and turned down my suggestion to have my mom come pick me up.

My clothes were pretty much all intact. I keep thinking what was he doing the whole time while I was asleep? I told him someone close to me tested positive and I've been anxious and he keeps telling me not to worry. But I can't help but want to ask Him his Status.


My mom keeps saying its called the date rape drug because it renders you unconscious and you don't know anything. But I feel like damn, I would have felt some kind of pain in the morning right? Been sore, something

I'm basically just ranting right now. I know I cant ask you to keep responding to me.

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