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Down to 35 MG/day on Methadone

Jun 26, 2012 - 0 comments

So today was good and bad, good because I started going to the gym again and bad because I stepped on the scale. 225 lbs FML  I have gained over 40 lbs since starting the methadone program and cannot wait to be off of it, I am glad I am not on other opiates and not getting high everyday from my dose but I am still upset that I have let myself go this bad, I weighed this much 3 years ago and it took me over a year to get in good shape and get down to about 185 but in just 4 months I have gained it all back and then some........but I am motivated and I need to get back to where I want to be and that is in shape, fighting in MMA again and Drug free, that is what I want out of my next year in this world and what I plan on doing.    Today was the first step and I know that the finish line cant be crossed if you dont run the race.....its going to take hard work and I know it cannot be done without strength and repitition but I know I have what it takes and will not let myself slip any further into oblivion......until next time.......
~Nicholas Patrick~

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