Jul 06, 2012
I have only been awake for about an hour. It's going to be unbearably hot outside soon so I'm in the porch for now...drinking coffee and writing here. It's about 72 in the shade. I hope to have atleast an hour out here. Last night wasn't as bad as the night before. I'm sure it was because I had put a new patch on. Even when I was on 100mcg I felt pretty crappy going into the 3rd day. I'm pleased with myself that I'm half way there!! I'm happy that this patch is so small. The others were bigger and it's weird but I could "feel" them in my arm. Like it was poking at me! I know that is just all in my head! I am anxious not afraid but anxious for the day that I don't put any patch on my arm!! I know that God has carried me through all of this. Not just the tapering but everything I have ever dealt with in my life. Rededicating my life back to my Lord was the best thing I ever did!! I want to know him. I have such a different relationship wiyh him than before!! I am praying circles around so many things and I know that God is faithful and that he will answer my prayers. It's all in his time. He works everything out for our good. I believe that with all my heart! I'm scheduled for my 2nd SI Injection on the 19th. I'm not for sure if the first one really helped or not. I am willing to try anything if it will help. I just pray. Always. I'm going to make it through this. It could be so much worse!!