Day 4

I'm on day 4 of w/d. I can do this. Everyday is getting easier. I hate lying to my kids. I admitted to my 12 year old daughter what I'm going through and she has been a huge help. I love her so much, she is incredible and did not judge me or look down on me at all. That made me feel so good. I hope for the strength to stay clean, I never want to go through w/d's again and never want to rely on a stupid pill to get by day to day. I know it's a long process but I can do this. 5 years ago I was clean and happy, so I can be there again. I WILL DO THIS, I CAN DO THIS, and I WANT THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING. I spend about 5000 dollars a year on pills. 5000 dollars??? Am I crazy? I could be taking a beautiful vacation somewhere with my family, I could buy myself and my kids new clothes, new household things..anything for that matter. I'm done with this devil drug. YOU WILL NOT BEAT ME!!!!