Return to Therapy

SOOO first day of therapy since break.. and it's the first time that I don't feel like I"ve gained anything. other then.. I want to be happy, but every time I get to where I think there is hope again, a HUGE string of outside events, which I can't control, slams itself on me, as it did all break.

It feels like something is actually consciously working against me. With little effort, keeping me in this place of everything-*****.

Thank you forces of nature.

muh moodieness