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things become alittle clearer

Aug 19, 2012 - 0 comments
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Fibromyalgia

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Depression

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Anxiety

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Pain

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Migraines

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chronic



So yesterday I spent time once social level with my dear DM for my weekly dungeons and dragons games. She herself has an assortment of health problems, fibro being a major one. We got to talking about all the pain, sickness, odd sensitivities, etc I've had throughout the past, and she asked if I ever thought it could be fibro. I had never thought of that before. I thought it was like arthritis, something only old people get. (Not saying shes old by any means). But I started doing some research and I have to say, my symptoms match to a tee. I'm never feeling right, but I've all but given up on doctors, since evertime I go to one about my issues, I get sent for a bunch of expensive, often invasive tests, only to be told they can't find anything wrong with me. I've started to feel like a hypochondriac, and it's done nothing but make my depression worse. It's very frustrating to always feel sick, or he in pain, or be absolutely exhausted, and to constantly be told there's nothing wrong with me. So far, from years of complaining to doctors, other than filling their wallets, I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, chronic migraines, and ibs. The latter, my doctor even admits is a cover all. For now, I've started a journal that I keep at my bedside table to track all the symptoms of the day once the pain/exhaustion puts me in bed for the day. Once that's got a decent amount of records in it, I'll be off to the doctors, demanding he hears me out and either diagnoses me so I can finally be treated properly and maybe start feeling better, or he'd better send me to a specialist who can help, if he cant. Until then, I need to find some patience. Patience to deal with my loved ones, who really don't understand what it feels like to be me, and keep at with the perseverance I have to get my sore, exhausted mss out of bed every morning to keep my job.

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