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Jan 14, 2009 - 3 comments
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Wow, things can sure change in 24 hours.  I was so blah and depressed yesterday only to have alot of anxiety, uncertainity, and feeling so unsure of my future today.  Some of you are aware of my history with my job.  Basically I have been working off and on over the last 2 years.  I acquired my Hep C by a needle stick at work.  Treatment played hell on my body and then found out the tx was not successful.  I have had alot of physical issues which they are unsure if they are the result of tx, the hep c itself, stress, meds or depression.  I currently am not working due to my neuropathy and brain fog to point of getting lost and forgetting what I had done that day.  Well...today I rec'd a certified letter from my employer notifying me that I was being placed on the accomadations for disabilty program to determine if I was employable in any capacity or if they would need to seperate me from service.  My biggest fear going to work in any capacity is causing an error that could hurt someone else.  I have an appt with an attorney next week.  I made the appt before I rec'd this letter.  I strongly suspect they will find me nonemployment.  Medical ins for needs non related to L & I is my biggest concern.  I belive in God and I know he is holding me in his hands.  I just need to be patient.  Try to be as physically and mentally healthy as I can.  When I was going thru all my paperwork I found my folder on self esteem and positive affirmations.  Kept it out.  I need to check my other e-mail.  For all you believers out there please keep me in your prayers.  I need all the help I can get.  Will keep my journal up as that is the easiest way to let everyone know how things are going.  When I get really deppressed, or brain fogged it is really exhausting to try and keep up all my correspondence.  I will cont to keep everyone in my prayers.  Just remeber that no matter where you may be today tommorow will be different.

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by stubby226, Jan 14, 2009
I am sure on a roller coaster today.  Happy one minute hearing news of new great grandson to almost being in tears the next.  I need to stop as I can't even concentrate on writing this.

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by frustrated431, Jan 14, 2009
im sorry you are having such a hard time right now i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope that things get better for you.

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by boogieman, Jan 14, 2009
hi there.  my mom is a nurse at a private psych/cd hospital and i worry about both the biohazards as well as the ever present threat of physical violence. it takes a special kind of person to do what you do and you'll get through this--you have friends in high places. we're not always able to avoid difficulty in life, but we have access to a power that will get us to the other side of the storm. circumstances may not be ok, but you will be. take care,  gm

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