today has been ok.
Mar 04, 2008 12:43AM
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today has been ok.
i ve had a cup of coffee and some sushi
not taken and diet pills or laxatives
..... but its not the end of the day yet!!
i wish i would get rid of these thoughts in my head. its like......arguing with myself. over the the OCD, anxiety and food. ALL THE TIME.
i have so much ahead of me and i want to be healthy and happy- but the the voice in the back of my head is saying u dont deserve it. or 'do it' because u really dont want to... or 'dont do it' becuase i want too...
do you know what i mean??
i ve had a cup of coffee and some sushi
not taken and diet pills or laxatives
..... but its not the end of the day yet!!
i wish i would get rid of these thoughts in my head. its like......arguing with myself. over the the OCD, anxiety and food. ALL THE TIME.
i have so much ahead of me and i want to be healthy and happy- but the the voice in the back of my head is saying u dont deserve it. or 'do it' because u really dont want to... or 'dont do it' becuase i want too...
do you know what i mean??
i understand where your coming from...
i have a severe form of anxiety and panic attacks that ive stuggled with.
for me it feels as if subconciously without me even knowing it my brain is setting me up for disaster, and no matter how hard i try to face the issues at hand or how bad i want it, it's like without me knowing it im not giving myself a fighting chance. It feels as if im fighting a constant stuggle in my mind, where breaking the cycle seems so hard some days.
i have a severe form of anxiety and panic attacks that ive stuggled with.
for me it feels as if subconciously without me even knowing it my brain is setting me up for disaster, and no matter how hard i try to face the issues at hand or how bad i want it, it's like without me knowing it im not giving myself a fighting chance. It feels as if im fighting a constant stuggle in my mind, where breaking the cycle seems so hard some days.
Wow! i am so glad we can relate.
I know exactly what u mean...
i want help but feel like i dont deserve it.
Its like there is an angel and devil in my head.. fighting and i cant get rid of them. im emotionally and physically exhausted from doing this all the time.
Thinking of you,
pleasehelpme88
I know exactly what u mean...
i want help but feel like i dont deserve it.
Its like there is an angel and devil in my head.. fighting and i cant get rid of them. im emotionally and physically exhausted from doing this all the time.
Thinking of you,
pleasehelpme88
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