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Sick, Frustrated, Confused.

Oct 15, 2012 - 0 comments
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I have been sick for over a month, no better but worse. All I wanted was answers and I still to this day have not received any. I had to travel out of Province to another to seek more medical help because where I am from our health care has completely got down hill and I no longer can even refer it to as health care, nor can most of the people from our part because there is no care. They just medicate you and send you home, if that at all. I was currently done of College and in pursuit of finding a career when I got ill. I had found my self a boyfriend. I was in the middle of making a future for myself, hoping that I would have succeeded thus far and continue to, but ever since I have become ill I have had to put my life on hold and wait for some kind of an answer as to what is going on, and not to mention I have yet to be tested or all of the things that could be problem. Still nothing is being done. I am now on an urgent list. My parents and friends, family, and boyfriend are home worried sick. I am up here all alone and just want to be home in my own bed at this point, missing my loved ones, and when you are sick all you want to do is be with your loved ones. I thought my depression might have been improving as well but ever since all of this flared up I have just become more depressed, frustrated, as well as now impatient. I just want some answers so I can get the help I need, and move on, continue to try and live my life and start to try and make the best of it. All I wanted was to work towards a future for myself, and try to make it a happy one at that, and now this had to happen. I don't know what to do anymore. I sometimes get the feeling as though maybe I'm not meant to be happy. I just want to get better already!

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