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post-incivek blues

Oct 17, 2012 - 0 comments
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i've been off all the meds since 9/11/12 am noticing some lingering effects like the insomnia i had during tx and the lip mouth and cheek rashes, around my eyes is itchy and blotchy i thought i was having an allergic reaction to some new eye shadow i bought but after reading posts on here i now believe its a lingering effect. i just want my face back!!!! this is so hurting my feelings and i want to SLEEP!!!!!!!! when i do sleep i have ptsd nightmares from an on again off again 15yr relationship. i didn't know this was going to happen and the kicker is i was responding to trx but had to quit due to life threatening side effects, depression-major and the heavy chest and fatigue i would get tired bending over. when i started i was so positive and ready to beat this dis-ease. but the 1, 2, ko i got instead fettered my resolve. but you know at least i know they are going in the right direction. i slept for 3wks after my last day of trx. house went to ****. kids spent way too much $$ on entertainment and take-out, that's what happens when you give a teenager a debit card. my son is a ******* teenager now. i don't want him to grow up and leave me. he's my shining star he is my breath the reason i live. my toddler is so out of sorts i feel like the most horrible mom on earth. i want to raise my babies right not bumble along between episodes of despair and mania. i'm getting myself upset but this is cathartic. i have been numb for awhile. WAKE-UP!!! lol now it's 12:30a and i have to drive my son to school watch my daughter and go to court in the afternoon. i freaked everyone out when i stopped trx and was incommunicado for the 3 wks. i'm surprised the cops werent called to do a well-person check on me like they did 12yrs ago when i wouldn't answer the phone. sometimes i just don't want to talk, to deal, to be here. i just need to tap and admit defeat sometimes. but what doesn't kills you leaves you cowering in its wake, j/k have a sense of humor won't you. ok babbling now-sign off

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