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Saline Infusion Sonogram

Nov 05, 2012 - 14 comments

So ever since I lost Ruby there has been this 'thing' inside me that nobody could tell what it was for sure.  I have had four ultrasounds with four different sonogragphers and they kept telling me they didn't know what it was and it was really hard to see.  Anyways I had a saline infusion sonogram today in the hopes they could see better and pinpoint exactly what it is.  Turns out it's a polyp and I will have to be put to sleep and have it cut out.  They reckon all the hormones from when I was pregnant with Ruby probably made it develop.  I'm really pissed as I am supposed to be having my FET in mid December and it looks like I may not be able to have it after all.  I wish I could just catch a break and have something go right.  Looks like I'm still being punished for something - wish I knew what it was.....

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by gilkesy, Nov 05, 2012
So sorry to hear this bad news! If they didnt diagnose the polyp and you had your transfer, you may have miscarried though, so its better that you know now and dont waste your precious little embies. Crossing my fingers your recovery is speedy so you can get on with the important stuff. Lots of love Nat xx

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by retta483, Nov 05, 2012
I'm glad you are getting it removed  before your future babies come . I know it is hard and you have been through such a rough time . I believe things will turn around for you ! praying for you xx

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by dscoqn, Nov 05, 2012
Thanks guys, yeah it is good that they could finally diagnose it.  I have read that polyps can cause miscarriages too, so I am grateful it's coming out before my FET.  I'm just so disappointed that my FET may not happen this year now, I feel like I have waited so long to be a mum and once again the rug is pulled out from under me.  Oh well, I just have to suck it up and get on with it like I always do, no choice really.  Thanks for your support guys xxx

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by butterflybabies, Nov 06, 2012
Sorry to hear :(  I had a polyp before and had to have it removed. I know it sux that now your FET will be postponed but look at it this way, better to postpone and get it taken care of then have it in the way of your next pregnancy. Your not being punished, I know it feels that way. I've felt that way to. Idk why good people suffer. It makes me mad that we go thru so much. I'm always praying for you and of course sweet little Ruby! I like to think that after all the loses before Ruby came along you never knew if you will ever have a baby, Ruby has shown you it is possible. The world had other plans for her but she showed you how much love you have and she knew how much you loved her. She is watching over you, hang in there. Time will go by fast and you will be having a FET before you know it!

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by dscoqn, Nov 06, 2012
Thanks so much hunnie, such lovely words - brought tears to my eyes.  You are right - Ruby has taught me I can get pregnant and get through the first hard bit which is when I used to lose them.  Now I just have to focus on getting through the second and third part and produce a live baby!  So hard to stay positive but having my lovely ladies on here certainly helps.  Love you xx

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by Sherri90049, Nov 11, 2012
Brought tears to my eyes, too! I'm so sorry to hear there is a delay with your FET, Kahli, but as all of the wise ladies above said, thank goodness it has been found and will be removed before it could cause a big problem! I am always thinking of you and praying for you! Your day is coming soon. I just know it! You are not being punished for anything. None of us are. It's just taking alot more time than we would like for our bodies to get into the shape they need to be in to carry a baby to term. We WILL all get there! Hang in there and know we all love you! Big hugs!!!

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by dscoqn, Nov 27, 2012
Thanks Sherri!  Your words are very reassuring and it helps to hear things from another perspective.  Big hugs back!  I am actually having the polyp removed today as I got pushed through quickly because they know I want to have the FET soon.  Fingers crossed everything goes well because I am having to have it done at the same hopital where I lost Ruby and they were so negligent with their care last time.   I am so scared letting them anywhere near my uterus but because of where I live, I am zoned to have it done there.

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by Ginger077, Nov 28, 2012
I know it's got to be so hard to go back to that hospital, I'm sorry you have to go thru the emotional part of that. I found it very difficult to go back to my clinic after each loss and still have trouble with it. I'm glad they could finally identify the polyp. I had so many and a large uterine septum which I think was the main reason our first IVF failed. None of the testing showed how severe the deformity and so many polyps. Like Lily said you will be healed and ready to have your FET in no time. Little Ruby and the man upstairs will be watching over you making sure to guide you safely thru this and onto happier days ahead. I will be thinking of you

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by dscoqn, Nov 28, 2012
Thank you Ginger 077.  It was hard walking back into that hospital and putting my trust in them after what happened with Ruby.  Turns out they couldn't find the polyp!  They looked for ages apparently.  She said it could have been some retained product of conception from Ruby they saw on the ultrasound so she did a d&c (scraped out all my endometirum lining) and said whatever it was would have been removed with the scraping.  I had some blood pressure and heart rate issues coming out of the anesthetic but came right quite quickly.  So relieved that it's all over.  Now on to the embryo transfer!  Hope they let me have it mid december - fingers crossed.


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by Ginger077, Nov 29, 2012
I can see how that could happen.  Whatever it was I am glad it is out and you have a fresh new home for your precious snowbaby.  Are you on estrogen to help build up your lining? I wish you noting but success my dear.  God knows that  YOUR TIME is long overdue.  

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by dscoqn, Dec 01, 2012
Thanks sweetie.  Nope no estrogen, apparently I just wait till I ovulate (use OPK and temping) and then they wack the embryo in.  They aren't giving me any drugs or anything - just a completely natural cycle.  Is that weird??  I've never had an FET so not sure what is normal or not.  They will give me progesterone after they do the transfer and I stay on that for the rest of the pregnancy (if I get preganant) to stop me going into pre-term labour again.   I've also just started taking baby asprin yesterday.

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by butterflybabies, Dec 01, 2012
I know nothing about FET but wanted to wish you luck!! Are they letting you start this next cycle?

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by Ginger077, Dec 01, 2012
I'm not sure if they are done with different protocols. I've only had one FET and I was on estrogen and progesterone beforehand. I have pcos which makes my hormones be off naturally so maybe this is why they chose it for me?? Regardless of how it's done for you I can't wait to cheer you on and hear good news :)


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by dscoqn, Dec 01, 2012
Thanks BB - I rang my fertility clinic on Friday to say I had started my period (I still got it, even after having a D&C!) but it went into answer phone so I left a message.  They told me last month, if I got my period late Nov, early Dec then there should be enough time to do the FET before Xmas otherwise I would have to wait till next year.  So because I got my period on time I should be allowed to have it this month - will just have to wait till they ring me back and see what they say.  Fingers crossed!

Thanks Ginger077 - I have PCOS too so I hope they are doing the right thing for me.  I think because I have regular periods though and always have a good lining maybe they aren't too concerned with me.  I'm not going to stress too much about it though - if there's one thing this journey has taught me, it's that I pretty much have no control over what's going to happen.  What will be will be.

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