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Second time around and oh so different

Nov 05, 2012 - 0 comments
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I am a few weeks into IVF and it's so different. I struggled through 9 months of IUI and insane expense and emotional drama for my first pregnancy. Now we are jumping right to IVF and the process is soooo different.  I haven't even tracked a single period or taken a temperature or peed on any OPK sticks.  It's nuts.  I just go to the doctor, get a calendar of medicines to take, have endless fights with my insurance company (which I'm soooo lucky that they cover IVF but they are jerks and deny you at first just for fun so that you have to work for it), do some injections, have ultra sound monitoring and blood test.  It's all being done for me.  I am 39 and my partner is 30, so my doctor thought it was best to use her eggs because we will only have to transfer one and have much higher chance of a healthy pregnancy than if we did two of my eggs.  That also gives us a lower chance of twins.  We live in San Francisco and I'm petite.  There's no room for twins in our house or in my uterus.  So this is all great.  But it feels so different than having my entire brain consumed by nothing but fertility for months and months.  So some day probably next week they will do an egg retreival and then 3-5 days later they will transfer the embryo into me and I will suddenly be transported back into my first 2 week wait in over 2 years!  I remember the emotion of it, but I feel unprepared for the insanity because of how sane the preparation for this pregnancy has been.  I guess I'm lucky.  I hope I don't lose my mind when I get to that point of waiting!

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