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Nov 14, 2012 - 2 comments

I want to cut myself. But I can't. I wish I could. It takes so much for me not to. It hurts. Not the cutting but not being able to do it. I know it's good that I don't but when I do it. It feels so good. It takes the pain away from my heart for a quick second. But then I'm left with an ugly scare and people's stares and questions. People say when people cut themselves it's for attention. Well maybe for some but for others it's a way to relieve the pain from inside and projecting it on something else to make them feel better even if its just for a quick second.

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by pegjenk, Nov 15, 2012
You really need to be in treatment for this.  There, you will learn how to deal with the pain.  You must go through it, cry, and let it go.  Whatever this is that has happened is now controlling your life.  You are giving all of your thoughts, energy, and anger to this.  None of this will make it go away for ever.  Try to find a good therapist in your area.  My compassion, thoughts and prayers are with you.  Call and make an appointment now and go.  

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by Badsoul, Nov 16, 2012
I go to therapy, and I've been trying to get help. But it's just not working. I don't know what to do, I've tried medication, and talking to my therapist about everything. Nothing seems to relieve the pain I have inside. I'm tired of feeling this way, one moment ill be okay and the next I just break down. I just want to be happy. I don't know if its even possible anymore though. I really appprieciate you commenting I didn't expect anyone to reply.

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