recurrance

Oh no, sorry to hear that.  Hopefully u will get good news.  You must be up the wall with worry.  How long ago did you have BC?

Well u know we are all here for you on this website come what may

I was diagnosed with BC Aug 1st 07.  My last Mamo was June 07 so it is coming up on a year since diagnosis.

I love this websight for hearing experiences and answering questions.

Take Care
Neenah

Hi Neenah,

Just wondering if you have any news on the possible reocurrence.  Thinking of u

I went to see the surgeon yesterday...A long day because it is a 2 hour drive.

He scheduled a Mam w/ possible ultrasound for March 25th.  So I have 2 weeks to worry.

Thank you so much for your concern:)

How are you doing?
Neenah

Hi Neenah,

The waiting is terrible.  Did he give you any indication?  Has the doctor done a CT scan on your lung to see what it is rather than revisiting every 3 months?  I think you need peace of mind now so you can start looking forward to getting on with the rest of your life.  Maybe an MRI scan will show the lung more clearly also.

I am doing great thank God.  A long weekend coming up now with St. Patricks Day on Monday.  I will be bringing my two boys to the parade with their little green flags!!

I have been back in work full time since end November and it is like the BC was just a dream or someone elses story. Don't get me wrong, it is always at the back on my mind and I constantly feel myself, but to the outside world, life is back to normal.  I was working on a big project in work for the past few months and was putting in a lot of hours.  The project went live on Monday this week and it is going really well.  So all the work was worth it and now I can take a step back and resume normal and reasonable work hours.

I have scheduled my first hair cut for 28th March.  The guy who was good enough to shave my head for me during chemo is going to do the first cut.  He owns the salon and is a really nice guy (a straight male hairdresser!!!!), very good at his job but also a wonderful manner and sensitivity.  My hair looks really cool now and trendy with the back and sides flicked out.  I just want the first regrowth tails cut off the hair but not to look any shorter.  I would like the hair to grow a little longer especially the fringe and top layers and then I think I will get a few copper highlights and keep this cool style, it suits me and does not annoy me.  I have decided to reinvent myself and may even buy some trendy clothes.  All I will need now is some trendy places to go to .....hemmm that is the problem!

Keep positive and let me know how you get on.

Thinking of you

Annette

Hi Annette,

The waiting is really a bummer!  As far as any indication as to what it is on my lung,  no.  He just wants to repeat the CT scan and keep an eye on it.

The breast he won't know until I get my MAM on the 25th.

The hair sounds like it is going really great.  I can't wait till mine is long enough for a cut with style.  Sounds like you can enjoy playing with neat trendy styles now.  I have had long hair for so long this is going to be actually fun to play with and look forward to.  I told my husband the other night, at least my hair isn't waking me up any more wrapped around my neck, LOL.  There are possitive sides to everything.  Something I am having trouble with is getting back to a life outside of BC.  It seems like through the therapy and treatments that life changes so much that when it is over it is hard to get back to what life was like.  Did you have that feeling as well?

I bet St. Pats Day is big for you and your family.  I hope you have a good weekend and your weather will be nice.

We are going to go to a movie as it will be cold and dreary (rainy).

Friends, Neenah

Hi Neenah,

I guess the first thing is that I accepted that life will never be the same again.  The BC has changed me and my family forever.  There is a cloud over us but hopefully it will keep lifting as the years go by and I am still cancer free.  However, I am a person whose's glass is half full so I try not to dwell on it too much, but believe me I have my moments.  I spoke to my doctor about it and he put it very well.  We are all so focused on gettting through the treatment and being cancer free that we almost have an adreneline rush during this time.  Our whole lives are centred and focused on getting through the treatment.  Then the treatment is over and what to do next?  It is like starting over in some respects, rebuilding your life.  What really helped me was that I worked a good bit during my treatment and I have two young boys,  Luke 5 and Conor 2 years 10 months, so both these factors gave me a sense of normality during my treatment.  With the boys life just had to go on and I had to be their same ould Mammy.  Having the boys were a god send.  I also kept going out with my friends when I was undergoing treatment.  I guess what I am saying is that I kept a reasonably normal life during my diagnosis and treatment.  To people on the outside life is back to normal, business as usual, but that is not the case, live will never be the same again for me.  I guess once I accepted that I have found it easier to move on.  I accept my situation now, cherish my family and friends more and look forward to a long and bright future.  On other days I panic within myself that the cancer will return and that I won't see my boys grow up.  I keep these thoughts to myself and don't share them with my husband or family because I don't want anyone to worry or fuss over me.  

Pick a few activities to start again that you did before BC and maybe you may get back to living a normal life again.  It does take time and is still taking me time, but every day is a bonus and we will both get there in the end.

Have a good weekend too.

Annette.

Hello,

You are soooo encouraging.  You hit the nail on the head when you said what your Dr. told you.  It is definately a adrenaline rush.  Then things come to a halt real quick when it is through.

I used to walk 5 miles a day and was so active.  Yest. and today I walked a mile each day to get some strength back and my daughter and I played Tennis this evening.  It was so nice outside and had to get out and enjoy it.

Thanks again for your encouragement and support.  Your great!

Neenah

Your welcome, you seem to be on the right path anyway.  Let hope you get good news from your Mammogram.  When you do, make sure you go out and celebrate and buy yourself something nice as a treat.

I was never one to treat myself much but boy did that change with BC.  Now I do buy myself some new clothes and don't always look like a raggamuffin.  I also don't feel guilty spending money going out for dinner with my friends.  I work really hard and take care of my family very well.  I just treat myself more and am kinder to myself.

Keep going.........

Annette

           Hello,
I haven't been on here in a while.  How are you doing?

I am fine.  I had all my test done the Lung CT showed spot still there no changes.  That is fantastic.  The Mamm has had me a little worried though because it showed some changes since the post opp one.  Don't really know what that means though.  they want to recheck in 6 months.  I do not want to wait 6 months.  Also my breast hurts alot more than it ever has and shows some swelling and is warmer than the other one.  I don't know what to think. I was hoping things would return to normal but I am not sure if that ever happens.

Friends,  
   Anna

May you always be blessed, with walls for the wind.
A roof for the rain,
A warm cup of tea by the fire--
Laughter to cheer you,
Those you love near you And all that your heart might desire.

Oh Anna, I hoped you would have got the all clear so you could move on.  Still, if they were very worried I doubt they would wait 6 months.  However at the end of the day, it is your body and you know it best and if you don't want to wait 6 months then don't.  Would it be an idea to get a second opinion?  Could you have an infection in the breast as it is painful, swollen and warm?

Good news about the lung though.  Have they ever actually said what that spot on the lung is?

Thinking of you.

Annette.