Update

Hi There

First...
Thanks you all so much for your comments, kind words and advice.
i feel really supported here :-)

Second..
My day has been ok.
I got up early and had some coffee and cereal with a bit of apple
....and had some tuna and crackers for lunch..
with no diet pills, laxatives or purging as of yet.
Went for a run yesterday (usually go for about 40 mins a day)
but am too sore and tired today and have a lot of study to do..
..i no- excuses excuses!!
But im going to the doctor on Tuesday and am going to try and put a bit of weight on before then
.....dont know how i feel about this.
..dont know if i can do it
and dont even know if i want too either.
like im confised i dont want the doc to know ive lost more weight
but
on the same token
i sort of do so she can help me...
..but then dont even know if i WANT or NEED help!!
Arrrggg frustration.

Um my BMI (body mass index) is 18.4
So i am considered "underweight" according to that.
But dont look it.

oh and by the way, i am 20 years old in May for those who were asking.
:-)

So far.. so good.
Then again its only 2pm here at the moment so i am hoping the rest of the day will go okay for me.

OCD not to bad but havent left the house yet today....
Anxiety holding up until now..
my heart iis pounding and my chest is starting to tighten..
..but all will be ok i just need a distraction and hopefully this will help..

Have a nice day and thanks again to those who are reading and commenting my posts xx

Pleasehelpme88