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11/2002

Nov 15, 2012 - 0 comments
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old hurts and injuries

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family



I am recovering for learning that my mother has cut me out of part of her estate.  It was upsetting, but there is nothing I can do.  I have tried many times to talk to her but she is focused on my getting away from the family over 40 years ago.  I feel once again that I am sort of the step-child.  I was the maid in my mother's house.  All of my adolescence was spent doing her bidding.  I tried to run away to a friend's house where I could stay for a month to finish my high school education.  It had splash back in that the mother turned the information over to child services, and who was the public county nurse- her.  She feels that I destroyed her professional appearance, and I was an embarrassment to the family.  My father's decision was to take me out of state to college.  From that point on, she has been angry and disrespectful of me and my family.  I have tried to make amends but it stays broken.  
My solution was to binge eat yesterday and feel sorry for myself.  I have decided that I need to let it go, and my choice today is to focus on forgiving her.  

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