Nov 29, 2012
I am really having a hard time this last week.
DB was put on overnights. This means while I work
he sleeps which also means Quinlan cant be home
So we get up at 6:45am, I get her dressed we get a
little snuggle/play time in and she is out the door by 7:30
I work at 8am til 6:15pm, I work 4,10 hour days
So I get Sat, Sun and Tues with her
It wasnt so bad before because DB would pick her up after he got off work late afternoon
or would drop her off before he went to work late afternoon.
Its always been hard for me but it was more tolerable. Now this is only through Xmas that
this has tohappen but I am really really having a hard time with it
I feel like my parents/sister are raising her and this is not what I wanted
I hate that this is the way it needs to be. Its not fair. BUt then life isnt fair
I just wish I didnt have to work. I want to spend time with her
I miss her like crazy and today is really really hard for me..
As I sit at my desk crying typing this my sister sends me a pic. "quinlan says I love you mommy"
Oh it hurts my heart so much...